My external being is having difficulty colliding with my
internal shit to be specific "my pumping station -heart". Fluids keep on dripping yet
I'm craving for a warm hug from her.
It has been days and I'm full of sadness, anger, repulsion, denial..
Oh, Acceptance when will I be waking up and say she's out of my life.
It sucks to just rub out all the happy thoughts we had and indeed
it is very tough to start doing such thing.
I'm still dreaming of us being together until we can no longer walk orderly,
til we can no longer hangout as we used to, til I can sleepwell for
I can no longer hear well and her loud snore would just be music to my ears,
til we can no longer eat fatty, salty, unhealthy foods and til the day are hugs and kisses
would be more than enough to complete our day.
Tears sequently drops with my sweat as I'm typing this entry.
I wish I could smile like I used to when I;m with her.
I'm missing her badly. I swear.
