Today.

I'll off my phone. No messages, no facebook, no whatever.
I want peace, positive things. 2014 is coming. Good vibes.
Let go of the things that hurts. Forget all the bad and just
Cherish the good ones. Faith. Will walk with faith.

Idk.

Jm is crying.

Cold.

I once told you that I lose trust.
I beg for you to please gain it back,
I'm giving you a chance yet still
You failed. I prayed for us.

Everyday, same prayers. Everyday.
Unto the day I came to realized
Its not just trust that has been broken.

Love. Yes, love.

It hurts so bad. Because for the nth
Time I failed.

#jre

I don't want to think of you loving anyone else,
I just want to remember what we had.
What we had.

New Year..

I want to meet you again, I want to start
Everything, from strangers to friends again.
I wont be asking for more than any..
I just want you to meet the better me.

The good person. The person that you
Wanted me to be years way back.
I wish that day will come. One day.
Just one day...

Hi..

Can I be your kebab?

And

Will you be my keema?

Thank God!

Off ako ng dec.31 then 10-6 shift by jan.1..
I'm sooooooooooooooo happppppyyyyyyy!!! :)

Ayaw konpla ng Kin!

Kebab and Keema na lungs!
Cute!!!!! My two fave food!!! :)

3rd: Letter to my whoever girlfriend.

Hi there, how have you been?
Im quiet tired I went out with mom and me
Sisters, bought gifts for Christmas.
Saw this very cute sweat shirt at
Forever 21, If only your with me.
I want that as our couple shirt kin. :)

Its almost Christmas, guess will both spend it
With our fambam. Another SMP year for me.
I'm wrapping gifts wish one of these is for you.

I want to give you everything, my world.
All the happy things, all that you can treasure.
I want to see your smile for i know you look good on it.

Everyday your smile.

For a very long time, I want us loving each other,
I want a happily ever after. I want to prove
Forever is true, with you. Only with you. My kin.

I want to be complete, you're the missing piece
My kin, i'll be waiting. I won't get tired. You're
Worth every tick & tock of my clock.
i'll be a good person I promise. Please be safe.

Muahmuah! Tsuptsup! :* <3 :)

Badtrip.

Status parinig.

She will never be forever stupid. Use the experience as a lesson. My friend please learn from it. Two years weee back I had the same shit and it hurts sooo bad. Change man, please. Change for the better. I don't want to see you grow old alone. Listen and you'll be glorified.

-this is for a friend who I saw myself two years ago.
Sana natamaan sya sa post ko, sana lang. Para kahit pano
Magbago sya. Kahit konte lungs. :)

Will go to market market to buy Christmas presents
For the kids and my monita.. For the second year SMP
Nanaman si jm.. Ting ning ning ning ning niiiiing.. Haha malas.

Bago to ah.

Jgl - just got load

Very very veeeeerrryyyyyy..

Inspired writing letters..and I don't know why. >,<

Wala naman tinetxt magdamag,
Wala din katawagan, wala naman dinedate.
Laboooooo. Haha >,<

Tsk

So sobrang busy ko sa trabaho hindi pako nakaka
Hagulgol sa pagiging single ko.. LOL >,<

#reading

In time, the hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let it go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong, I'd write you another letter. But I never sent them for fear of what I might find. By then, you'd gone on with your life and I didn't want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn't ever want to lose that. #thenotebook 

I'll forever remember remember jenn with this quote. :)

Typing

My third letter to Ms. Whoever girlfriend :)

In a relationship

With kintoy.. HAHA ^___^

Milk tsaa with sorbetes.

Onga mas masarap gong tsaa sa serenitsaa.

Kaadik!

She

Left me in doubt.

One bottle is enough.

Year weee back a girl told me that I should

Stop or lessen my alcohol intake.. Because that's 

One of the reason why she lost her father.

I didn't listen that time, I was so stressed until

The day she's no longer mine. Few months after the break up

I realized, I should have listen to her, 

the shits could not happen.

Lesson: listen and be more sensitive with your loved ones

Concern.

i know i cannot Stop drinking but then i can

lessen my intake. One bottle is enough, three is too

Much, five only happens once in half a year i guess.

Thanks to her, and now it breaks my heart seeing her 

post that shes drunk and all. 

Second Letter to my whoever girlfriend.

Hi kin good morning.. ^__^
Was browsing my facebook and suddenly felt
Envious with my friends post. A set of breakfast
For her girlfriend.

Kin, i wish someday i'll be able to prepare breakfast
For you. I wish i'm no longer typing my letters for you
In this blog, coz I always wanted to write this thoughts
In a paper and give it to you with a bouquet of flowers.

Kin, i hope one day will be able to hangout, have coffee
You sitting next to me and me holding your hand tightly.
I hope one day you'll be able to meet my family and friends.
That one day you'll be able to spend weekends in our house,
Sharing laughters with my sisters, spend a "taco day" and
Pig out with us. Hoping that one day you'll meet my very bestfriends
Allan and Krislyn...

Everyday I'll pray for that Day to come. In Gods time.
That perfect day.

Have a good day kin! Please always be safe.

March.

Mahirap maka move-on, tapat sa binibitawang salita,
Sumpungin, matampuhin, sweet. Mapagbigay sa partner.
Mahilig sa surprises. Best kisser!

> HAHA guilty.

To my next whoever girlfriend.

Hi.. Magandang gabi sayo.. :)
Namiss ko lang gumawa ng letter, anyways
Asleep kana kaya? Or like me nagpupuyat
Nagbabasa ng book while listening to my favorite
Dreamsounds..

Future girlfriend can I call you my "kin", nagamit
Kona yan before pero please? Yan kasi gusto ko
Tawag sa forever ko. Pretty please??????

Kin, I hope the wind will blow you next to me,
I want to love you as if I never loved any except for
My family.

Please let me take you to work/school.
Please be the only girl that will ride next to
Me when I finally have my first car?
Please allow me to date you during my rest
Days or allow me to have breakfast, lunch or
Dinner with you before i head to work
Or post shift.

Kin, let me take care of you. I promise to be
The best cutest nurse you'll ever meet. :)
I'll  be faithful, i'll be kind.
We'll put God in the center of our Love.

I'm looking forward into meeting you someday.
Goodmornight my whoever girlfriend. Please
Be safe, sleeptight. ^____^
(Tulog na! Wagka magpuyat nakaka-taba.)

Gusto ko ng bagong "kin" sa buhay ko.
#biglanamissgumawanglettersanextwhoevergirlfriend

Ayyyyyyyyy.

May sakit ako. T_T

Malapit nako bumalik sa trabaho,
Salamat naman at medyo bumubuti na isip ko,
Puso ko, nakokondisyon nako.

Pinilit ko tong VL para satin, para makabawe,
Para sumaya tayo. Pero iba nangyare. Parang
Naka-plan sa taas na mag VL ako, kasi eto yung
Orase na gagamitin ko para mawala yung
Masakit, yung galit.. Hindi kita kakalimutan.
Pero hindi narin kita magiging kaibigan.
Grabe lang kasi ginawa mo
E alam ko sa sarili kong diko deserve yun e.
Alam modin gano kita minahal db? Hindi ka lang
Nakontento.

-jomanggi

Harshtag.

#dramas #lashong #deeplyhurt #past
#present #shits #hoes #worthless 😔

Siguro beast ako, hindi best.

Bat kaya ganun.

Bat ganun mga ex ko, parangdi sila hirapan nung nawala ko.
Parangdi nga nag move on, may girlfriend agad. Masaya agad.
Samantalang ako, eto basag. Ang labo naman.

Ganon bako kadali kalimutan? Ganun bako naging kasama?
Minahal kaya tlaga nila ko? Ang lungkot. Ang daya ni kupido.

Wala nga siguro ko tlagang kwenta. Wala olats. Lungkot.

Tangina.

Mamaya.

Magpapagupit ako sa koreana.
Tapos bukas magjojogging ako pagkatapos
Jamba juice.
Sa isang bukas magsswimming ako.
Sa isang bukas lalabas with a friend
Tapos puro bahay at pahinga na lungs.

Perrrrooooooooooooooooooo,
Pagsinipag ako, bukas nasa anawangin nako.

:)

Sagada orange.

Sobrang sarap mo.

Limang daan araw ng tag-init.

Yung immature na JM noon inis na inis kay
Summer, kasi naman parang nanggagago lang kay
Tom. Malapit yung storya sa mysassygrl sa una masaya
Sobrang kakilig, pagdating sa dulo biglang lalabo.
Yung immature na jm, hindi maintindihan bat
Nagkaganun yung storya ng pelikula, di magets
Kung bat magulo isip ng babae. Kung bat patuloy
Nya napaasa si tom, iritang irita kasi para syang bula
Susulpot, mawawala. Hanggang sa tuluyang nawala.

Pero yung JM ngayon iba na intindi sa pelikula.
Hindi nako naiinis, gustong gusto konga ending e.
Minsan may dadating tlagang magpapasaya satin,
Paparamdam na masarap magmahal, at mas lalong masarap
Na mahalin. Ang problema, hindi lahat ng tao predictable, hindi lahat
Kilalang kilala mona. Hindi lahat handa sa habang buhay.
Yung JM ngayon nakarelate kay Tom,
Magbago, magpursigi, magmove on, buksan ang sarili
Sa mga bagong bagay na dadating sa buhay. :)

Sabe nga sa pelikula..

Sometimes, when people grow. They grow apart.
 #sadtruth

To: AB

Bigla kita naisip, kamusta kna kaya?

Alam mo bang ikaw nagpawala ng sakit

Na nafeel ko noon, ikaw nagpawala ng 

Kalokohan ko na babalik pa si kwan.

Ikaw nagpa ngiti ulit sakin, ikaw nag

Paexcite ulit gumising ako ng maaga,

Ikaw nagpabalik ng pagiging kitikitext ko.

Ikaw nagpalabas ulit ng sweetness ko, araw araw

Kasi fresh ampalaya kinakain ko. Haha :)

Ikaw nagtanggal ng takot na magmahal ako

Ulit. Salamat.. :) 

Sinilip ko fb mo, nice may new girlfriend kana

At ramdam kong sobrang saya mo. Deserve mo

Yan, kaya sobrang saya ko para sayo. ☺☺☺

From: JM

Best or worst.

It feels great to talk to my ex, dame na bago saknya

Mukha naman sya masaya, contented. Oohh well bute 

Pa sya. Gusto ko sya tanungin bat bigla nawala

Lahat noon? Kaso bgla ko naisip im at my worst that

Time. No work, lost, bum. Hindi sya yung tamang tao

Para tanungin baka sa ibang ex pwede pa.

Bat kaya ko niloko ni chloe? Im not perfect but im at

My best during our rel. i lack time guilty ako dun

Pero wala naman araw na pinafeel kong diko sya mahal.

Bat ganun. She had me at my best but she chose to break

My heart? (Nakikijohnloyd) kala ko pag best dina iiwan

Kasi nung worst ako iniwan ako. Labo.

I am not so well.

Migraine
Throbbing pain
Cheat pain

Alone

:(

Dear destiny,

Alam ko madame mali sakin...
Marame ko kasalanan, madame ko kagaguhan,
Madame ko nasaktan, napaiyak, nagulo.

Pero nabago nako ah.. :(
Behave nako db? Nakita mo naman behave nako db?
Bat ganun :(

May bago kaba ipapabangga sakin?
May bago kaba ipapalove at first sight?
May bago kaba ipaparating?

Bat ang labo mo. Malabo pa sa mata ko.

Crying...

God I need a break.

Nanaman.

Eto nanaman, momove on nanaman.
Pero eto hindi na kasing tindi ng iba.
Medyo chill na to. May isang bagay lang naman
Kasi talagang dapat marinig para bglang mawala
Lahat e..Yung mga salitang..

Oo may iba na.

Puta para kang naligo ng tubig baguio sa
Taas ng mount everest nyan. Matatanggap
Mona na wala ng pag-asa wala na, wala ka na.

Guato ko ng kausap :(
Yung katapat ko yoyosi lang
Bawal alak, mamamasyente pako bukas
Sa susunod na bukas at sa isa pang bukas.

Vacation leave kopamandin. Hay.
San kaya ko papalipas araw. :(

137 beats per minute.

Sana andito si kris, para may kaibigan akong
Iiyakan. Kasi ang hirap na kimkimin, ang hirap
Na solohin, parang tinutusok yung dibdib ko. :'(

Bad person nga siguro talaga ko.

Blog ko naman to e.

Putaaaaanginnnnnaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! Tanginaaaaaa!!!!!!
Ang sakit. Tangina naman lahat na binigay mo,
Lahat ng gusto, effort ko papuntang pampangga kahit
Isang araw na lang na dapat ipahinga ko!
Lahat na ng putanginang dapat gawin para maging okay smooth
Lahat ginawa ko putangina dikapa nakontento?!
Tangina naman. Ang labo ng panahon.

Tangina ano ba mali sakin? May trabaho nako, mabaet naman
Ako, hindi naman ako nagkukulang sa effort and care,
Faithfulness? Putangina nakakalkal mo phone ko nakakasama
Moko ng matagal mga accounts ko alam mo password
Tangina nagpakatino nako dahil sobrang sakit mawalan.
Pero bat ganon?!!!!!!! Niloko moko. :'(
Ang daya mo ney :'( ang daya niyo. :'(

><> nag-rant lang, tangina kasi sobrang ewan na. Nakakaiyak na
Nakakapalpitate na nakakachestpain. Ang sakit sakit na ;'(

Ako na niloko, sya pa matigas at kung makipagusap
Parang gago. Tongue in a lungs te.

Matanda nako.

Ayoko na ng walang kasiguraduhang relasyon,
Sawa nako sa flings, sa landian, sa panandaliang kilig.
Ayoko na ng complikado.

Ang lungkot, baka abutan ako ng kota.
Baka timanda na lang ako mag-isa. :(

Hala.

From 2pm to 11:30 workako, tapos till 4am gising.
Nagiisip lang, pakonte konteng iyak.. tapos ngayon nagising
Nako, ayun parang ewan kase ayoko na sya makausap,
Makatext or makita. Get kona feeling ng mga ex ko
Nung nagbreak kme, package pla un pag nawala ang love >,<

Parang tanga lang.

Bibili ako ng kotse tapos yun na lang mamahalin ko,
Paggagastusan ko, aalagaan ko, idedate ko.. Ayun..

Ayoko na maniwala sa sparks, sa love at first sight,
Kay kupido, sa destiny, sa happily ever after..
Olats naman e, nakakadala na. Nakakalungkot.
Pero ewan.

Ang lungkot ng gising ko ngayon.

Tapos lolokohin ka lang.

Sabe nila wag ikahiya ang mahal mo, lahat ng impossible
Gawin mong possible, yung malayo e palapitin,
Lahat dapat para sa ikasasaya niya at ninyo.. Kasoooo
Tangina bat ganyan yung title ko. Labo.

Hay.

Sana ako na lang ginirlfriend mo.

Pag naging ok tayo, pwedeng maging tayo?

wala naman nagbago, chance lang naman prob satin.

Tara pareho na tayo single oh.

Labo dito sa Pinas.

Sa ibang bansa na lang ako maiinlove ulit.

Magpapapayat ako!!!!

Promise. Grrrr.

Kung di ka iiwan, lolokohin ka naman.

Ayaw kona sa CHUBBY!

Bwisit.

Buhay single.

Infairness namiss ko ang gantong buhay,
1year and six mos din kasi ata kong single not
Sure sa buwan, anyhoo..

Ngayon iniiwanan ko ang phone ko sa sulok
Walang maggalit kapag diko sinagot.

Makakalabas na ang tanging hihingan ko lang
Ng paalam ay ang aking magulang.

Makakatulog sa oras na nais ko, basta kung kelan
Na lang mapikit mata ko.

Makakalabas with friends ng walang timer.

Makakapagshopping ng bongga, magpapafacial,
Pamassage, lahat ng pang pamper magagawa na.

Magkakaron na ulit ng  me time, yung upo
Lang sa kapihan tahimik lang, ako lang.

Masarap din naman. Ang love andyan lang yan.
Meron at meron para sayo, impossibleng waley.
Very very im-pa-si-bol.

Labo mo kupido.

Lahat nanga tinago, lahat na inintindi,
Lahat na binigay. Hindi ako nanunumbat
Pero putangina naman!

Wala naman gaguhan. Hoooooo.
Malas sa pag-ibig.

Sanayan lang yan te...

Nung nagbitaw sakin si J na babalik sya kapag ok na sya pag na-heal na,
Pinaniwalaan ko. Nag-antay ako. Umasa ko ng sobra.
Hanggang sa hindi napala magkakatotoo, never na pala mangyayare.

Sobrang sakit, hanggang sa maging manhid na lang ako. Hanggang
Sa masanay nakong umiiyak kapag malungkot at nasasaktan.

Ngayon, Wala ng sobrang sakit kapag sa tema ng pag-ibig.
Kagaya ngayon, niloko ko. Tanging nasabe kona lang..

Sanay nako te.

#nageexpresslungsnaman

Yung taong araw-araw dinadasal mong bumalik sayo,
Ngayon kinaka turn off mona ng husto. Siguro nga masyado
Kasing marame nagbago no? Ewan, nanghinayang ako sa mga
Araw na inantay ko sya, sa mga taong naging mabute
Pero hinanap ko yung pagmamahal niya. Pero oks na nanibago lang
Siguro ko para kasing nagpabaya na yung taong kala ko e
Panghuli kona. >,<

Laboooooo.

Bat ganun mga ex, isang araw friends kayo.
Mayamaya iuunfriend kana..

Ung totoo? Tagal na nating wala te. Hindi nako
Magmamakaawa bumalik ka, ang nakaraan ay
Nakaraan. Eto english kung gusto mo sosyfied!

Past is past.

Nakipagfriends ako kasi nakakahinayang yung
Ilang taon na pinagsamahan natin, kasi sayang naman
Talaga. Pero kung iba iniisip mo te, sige push
Mo yan, madali naman ako kausap.

Masaya ko na somehow naguusap na kame ulit ni badjie.

-answered prayer ☺

Kwentong broken hearted.

Gulp.. Gulp.. Biglang banat.

Pre, ayoko na mainlove, sakit. Kala ko kame na,
tipong first and last. Tapos biglang ayawan na. Pota.

Bubbles popped up in my head..

"Gagong to! Bute kanga isa pa lang nawawala sayo,
Pre kung alam mo lang, ako nawalan na ng first love,
Ng greatest love, ng first true love.. Ang dame na
Nawala sakin, lahat sila pinanghinayangan ko ng husto."

Flashback tayo..

First love, si kath from bulacan. Sakanya ko
Nalaman na masaya pala magka girlfriend,
Saknya nag start lahat ng pacute na ginagawa
Ng mag partners.. Movies, teddy bears, basta sweet
Nothings.. Saknya din nagstart ang unli fights!
Unli break up, unli habulan, at infairness unli balikan din naman.

Para sakin pinaka madali magmove on sa first love.
Kasi surely u'll keep on finding someone better that yar first.
Tsaka dikapa nadadala e, gusto mo pa sumugal kasi
Baka this time perfect na. Hindi na mauulit yung nangyare sa una.

Dyan na papasok si 'greatest love'.

Greatest love, Charlyn of Mandaluyong.. Sakanya ang mas matured na
Relasyon, siya kasi yung naharap ko sa buong angkan namin..
Saknya ko nafeel na kaya pala ko mahalin ng ibang tao higit
Pa sa sarili nya. Kahit anung pagpapabaya, pagtataboy, pangaaway,
Panloloko hindi niyako iniiwan.

Alam ko napagod na lang siya sakin, isip bata pako nun, hindi
Alam gagawin sa buhay, sabik pako sa ibang tao, sa party, sa
Mundo. Nasakal ako masyado ni greatest love, pero nung nawala sya
Halos diako makahinga kakaiyak.

Si Greatest love ang pinaka mahirap kalimutan, madame ka magagamit na
Tao para mawala sya sa circulation mo. Isa kasing malaking regret
Si greatest love. The beast kasi e, all out.

Tungo tayo kay first ever True Love..

Si Ms. Pasay aka Jenn.. Saknya ang pinaghalong kath and charlyn,

Pagsinipag nako ulit magtype.. Hirap magblog sa phone. >,<

pagpahibalo sa pag-adto..

Dear Charo,

Bumalik tayo apat na taon mula ngayun..
Sa Edsa Central, starbucks sa labas, smoking area.
Ako naka caramel frappe sya naka americano.
nagyoyosi, ilang araw pagkatapos ng pasko.

malamig, tahimik.. ang ganda nitya.
tuwid buhok, maliit labi, sobrang puting ipin.
chinita, kumikinang sya sa kagandahan.

nagtanong sya kamusta kana? sabe ko nun
mabute kahit hindi...kwentuhan.. blah, blah..
hanggang lumipas ang oras. biglang may tinanong sya..

Mahal mo pa bako?

bigla ko natulala, puso ko sumisigaw ng oo
mahal kita.. pero ang isip ko sabe wag na..
kaya sumagot ako..

Hindi na..

Umuwi kaming parehong malungkot, yun ang unang
beses na kinalaban ko sarili ko para matapos na.
Apat na taon pabalik mula ngayun natutunan ko ang isa sa
pinaka magandang leksyon na binigay ng pagkakataon.

Ang Bumitaw.

PS: Sa pagbitaw ko, natuloy yung pangarap nya na diko kaya ibigay.
Sariling Pamilya. at sobrang kinasaya kong malaman na isa na syang ina.

^__^

hey..

its been a while.. tagal nadin ako di nag entry ah..
wala naman kasi masyadong bago..hmmmm,
lately facebook friends na kame ni jenn, visited her
profile and wwwwooohoooo mukhang straight na sya.
i'm happy for her, naalala ko when i let go of char
kasi naglove na sya ng boylet.

Naisip ko nun, wag ako magpaka selfish.. kailangan niya ng pamilya
kasi yun naman talaga pangarap nya, ngayun pagnakikita ko sya sa facebook
nakakatuwa na may baby boy sky na sya.

Kung positibo kang tao, never magiging masakit mag let go.
minsan nga yun pa magpapasaya sayo.
masakit, oo.. sobrang sakit, attached kapa kasi.
Pero sa dulo, pag narealize mong napapasama kana sa pagkapit
gugustuhin mona bumitaw, dun magsisismula yung mga postibong
part. Dun ka magsisismula magbago, manindigan, mangarap, umaksyon.

Lage ko inisip nung iniwan ako ni ganto kasi ganun ako.
Simula nun ginawa ko syang inspiration, para magbago.
ika ng nila Change for the BETTER not for the BITTER.

haha nonsense post. >,<

Mahal kita kasi..

Hindi pa tayo mahal na kita..
Pagkita ko pa lang sayo alam ko akin kana.
Maraming dahilan bat kita mahal,

Mahal kita kahit mataba ka,proud akong
chubby ka, kasi sobrang sarap mo yakapin.
sobrang sarap din payakap sayo kahit parang
mababasag na ribs ko sa higpit.

Mahal kita kahit lagi kang pawis, at lage ka
sinusumpong pag mainit. Kasi pagpawis
ka lumalabas pagka mestisa mo, pulang pula.
yung sumpong mo sarap lang tawanan, kasi
nakanguso ka ng dimo napapansin sa inis.

Mahal kita kasi maeeffort ka, malayo ka,
malayo ako, pero pagdating sayo parang ang
lapit lang ng lahat. lage ka andyan pagginusto ko,
kahit bumagyo hindi ka nagpapaawat.

Mahal kita kasi ang tindi ng pag-iintindi mo
sakin, sa trabaho ko, sa mga araw na halos dinakita
matext o makausap. Naaappreciate mo yung
halos wala pang isang oras na chloe time.

Mahal kita kasi pinapatulog moko, hindi ka humihingi ng
oras, kasi alam mong pagod na pagod ako.
Mas mahal kita kasi alam kong behave ka lang,
at di nagsasawa mag update sakin habang nakapikit ako.

Mahal kita kasi kahit wala na tayong masyadong
dates, yung oras lang na kasama moko sa bahay
kinakasaya mona ng sobra. Hindi ka humihiling ng
fine dining or mamahaling restaurants.

Mahal kita kasi matakaw ka, yung hindi naman kasarapan kong
luto inuubos mo, lage mo sinasabe masarap. Kahit alam ko
namang maalat minsan matabang. Mahal na mahal kita
pagkumakain ka, kasi yung pisngi mo lumolobo. :)

Mahal kita kasi consistent kang maggoodmorning at
goodnight, Mahal na mahal kita kasi hindi ka nakakalimot
magsimba tuwing linggo, lagi mo pinagdarasal yung dasal ko,
never mong nakalimutan ako at pamilya ko.

Mahal kita kasi kahit alam kong nasasaktan ka sa
nangyayare sakin ngayon nakasupporta kapa din.
Mahal kita chloe.Mahal kita sa madaming dahilan,
hindi kaya ng iisang sagot lamang.

mahal kita ngayon, bukas, sa isang bukas, buwan, taon.
hanggang sa hindi na tayo makatayo at puro pute na buhok mo,
mahal kita.  Mahal kita kahit umikli pa buhok mo, mahal
kita kahit mawala na braces mo. basta mahal kita ney.
huwag ka lang pumayat ng husto, kasi mamimiss ko bilbil mo..

Mahal na mahal Chloe.

yung.......

maghanpon lang ako nakatulala,
ayaw tumigil ng mata kakaluha.
puro lungkot, puro sakit.

walang ibang maramdaman.
kahit konteng saya wala.

Iba siguro talaga ang love na tinamaan ng spark,
kesa sa love na naramdaman pagka mulat ng mata sa umaga.

kung pumayat kaya ko for a change? kaya ko naman pala buong araw di kumain.

bakla.

Bat kaya HINDI ako masaya.

may trabaho, pero absent ako.
nakakaburnout, nakaka diarrhea.
kailangan ko ng bakasyon.may pera,
pwede mag VL, ngunit....walang kasama.

may mahal, pero break na.
mahal ko.. pero tuwing makikita ko
yung taong bago sya na masaya sa iba,
masakit. malungkot, tumutulo luha.

may kaibigan. madame, pero tatlo lang gusto
lageng nakakasama, yung pinakagusto ko asa dubai pa,
ang layo, kamiss ang duyan, chells, yosi,
empilights, san miguel lights, at Christmas lights.

Sasaya kaya ko kung magkakabago sa paligid ko?
nakakapanibagong araw. parang nawawala ko,
wala kong maisip na sagot para sumaya.

feeling billy crawford peg ko ngayon. pota.
hanapan ng sarili. kasi kahit tumapat ako sa salamin,
walang matabang cute na jm akong nakikita.

wala.

fucker.

watched conjuring.ultra scary.

deactivating facebook for a while..

In every ending, there's a beautiful beginning.

Dun tayo sa mas ok.

minsan ine-end ang relationship to save something better,
like "friendship", yung pagkakaibigan na bago pa magsimulang magkaron ng "kayo"...
eh, napaka-ganda, napaka saya, tipong lahat nasheshare, meron pa lang
sarili "MO" at sarili "KO", na kahit mag-away tayo. walang nagbabago
kasi friends tayo.

naiinis akong sabhan na kaya ko ni-let go kasi hindi ko ganun kamahal,
sobrang sakit at hirap sakin na yung taong dinasal ko, hindi na magiging akin
simula ngayun.. Sana maintindihan ng ibang tao na,

Hinde lahat kayang ayusin ng love, 
hindi lahat kayang itawid ng pagmamahal lang,
madamneg sangkap para magtagumpay yung "kayo"..

pinili ko yung mas mabute para sa akin at saknya. hiwalay man kame
sa ngayun, alam ko sa mga sususnod na araw mag-uusap kame ulit 
katulad ng date.. yung masaya, makulit, away tapos agad agad bate. 

:)

haybuhaynaparangpatay.

magmomove on nanaman, iiyak nanaman,
mapiprick nanaman  ng needle sa kakatulala,
nakakairita, nakakabwisit, nakakayamot.

nakakaantok.

yosi + darkmocha.

SINGLE.

nanaman.

50 - 1: nothing but me.

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
- Choe

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken (facebook)?
- At Kielh's, Mall of Asia.

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
- unfortunately, yes.

[FIVE] What is your current mood?
- happy and feeling lazy :)

[SIX] What's your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
- uno, bea, jen and ja.

[SEVEN] Have you ever been torn between two lovers?
- feeling like a fool..lol seriously, yes.

[EIGHT]Where do you wish you were right now?
- Egypt.

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
-na, i'm boring.. LOL :)

[TEN] Have you ever had a near death experience?
- yes!yes! I have a scar near my nape, souvenir nun tragic event.  

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
- read.

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
- na, di uso sakin magalit. madalas lang ako mapissed off.

[THIRTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
- June 7, 2013

[FOURTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
- YES.

[FIFTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
- things to do upon waking up.

[SIXTEEN]Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Chloe.. :)

[SEVENTEEN] What is your favorite song?
- dame, pero ngayun "at the beginning"

[EIGHTEEN] What are you doing right now?
- Answering the 18th question..haha :)

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
- fambam and few very important people aside from them.

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
- closet.. haha :P

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?
- yeeeeeheeees.

[TWENTY-THREE] Who are your friends that live closest to you?
-Krislyn, Allan and Qhuey.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Describe your life in one word:
- breathtaking.

[TWENTY-FIVE] Who are you thinking of right now?
- My chloe.

[TWENTY-SIX] What should you be doing right now?
-preparing for a party.. >,<

[TWENTY-SEVEN] What are you listening to?
- hillsongs.

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
- khaiki..

[TWENTY-NINE] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
-CHLOE!!!!

[THIRTY] What is your natural hair color?
- itim. :?

[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- Chloe.

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you sad?
- Wala ko maalala.

[THIRTY-FOUR] What do you hear?
- words of God.

[THIRTY-FIVE] Is your hair curly or straight?
- kkkkuuuulllowtssss :(

[THIRTY-SIX] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
- Yes, ALWAYS!.. haha ^__~

[THIRTY-SEVEN] Do you have a best friend?
- yes, yes my bestbud Jejomar.

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
-yes.

[THIRTY-NINE] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
- ALWAYS.

[FORTY] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
- haha yah, sa public bus panga e.

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with life right now?
- Yes I'm very happy.

[FORTY-TWO] Are you currently jealous?
- no :)

[FORTY-THREE] What jewelry are you currently wearing?
- no-th-ing.

[FORTY-FOUR] What were you doing Friday night?
- I went out with chloe. :)

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?
- many times.

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
- yes.

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
- ahhhh, waler naman.

[FORTY-EIGHT] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
- physical examination.

[FORTY-NINE] How late did you stay up last night and why?
- was on duty last night..

[FIFTY]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
- dated? not yet.

EXPERIENCE - wow big word... :)

elevator coversation with a nurse-friend & colleague:

Friend: sa totoo lang, nic, wala talga akong naiipon, dami ko kasing binabayaran, boarding house pa....

ME: kala mo lang wala kang naiipon, pero meron...

friend: wala nga....

Me: meron...

friend: ano yun?

me: Experience... and no one can take that away from you... In fact, mas magandang ipon yun kasi hinding-hindi nababawasan, nadadagdagan lang... araw-araw pa...:D

friend: ayaw ko ng experience, gusto ko pera...

Me: ano ka ba! in the future pag naclaim mo na yang ipon mo na yan, sobra sobra pa yan sa perang gusto mo ngayon... ^_^

friend: ok. O.o — feeling optimistic.

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Nicole's points of view often pissed me off, lalo na pag topic e alak and love,

but this conversation she posted at facebook made me Thank God for having her

not just a co-nurse but as a friend as well. :)

Tama sya,. tsaka bute nga ikaw ate na gusto ng pera nakakapag-simula na ng

experience na kailangan mo. Yung iba nga pumapayag na magvolunteer, yun

libre na pagod pa, rereklamuhan kapa. :) just be thankful, kung pera-pera lang

hindi mo mabibigyang ng quality nursing care ang mga pasyente. Tama? :)

muni-muni lungsssssssss. :)

will go to tagaytay tom, ako lungs mag-isaaaa.

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bbm meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)

#basedonmypast

one thing I've learned with regards to break-ups is that, "always stick on your judgements". never ever EVER chase on someone who flirts easily after the rel ends.

yung feeling na kabbreak lang nakikipaglandian na? wow ikaw na! the beast ka. :)

May nagtanong lang naman...

Jm, umiiyak ka ba?

nako te kung alam mo lang, umiiyak ako pagnananaginip ng ostrich,
umiyak lang ako kagabe dahil hinahabol daw ako ng tornado, umiiyak ako
pagsobrang pagod katulad kanina, umiiyak ako kapag naaalala ko yung date, umiiyak ako pagnaiisip ko lahat ng pinagdaanan kong sakit, umiiyak ako kapag nasusugat kahit maliit lang,umiiyak ako kapag hindi ko nakuha gusto ko, umiiyak ako paggutom, umiiyak ako tuwing may nililibing or nakikinig ng eulogy, iniiyakan ko ang mga jologs na teleseryeat umiiyak ako kapag malungkot ang storya ng novela, umiiyak ako kapag may masakit na sinabe sakin, umiiyak ako kapag natatakot, umiiyak ako pag umiiyak mahal ko. Inshort, iyakin ako, hindi lang halata.

Kasi sa lahat ng pag-iyak ko, wala halos nakakakita. Bihira lang, Strong ang peg ko e. Hindi naman lahat ng pag-iyak ko kadramahan sa buhay, umiiyak din ako sa saya. Umiyak ako nung pumasa ko ng boards. Tsaka, Naiiyak ako sa tuwa kapag nakakapagsimba ko at nakakapagpasalamat salahat ng biyaya..

Ayun lungs... :)

Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finally say "I'm used to it."

Hey Tuesday...

Minsan gusto ko mabadtrip sa trabaho ko, wala ng oras sa sarili, lalong walang oras, para sa ibang tao.
madalas maraming hindi kayang umintindi. madameng pagkakataon na hindi ko nakakasama pamilya ko sa outings, hindi ako nakakalabas with friends kasi di pwede ang bglaang lakad, wala ko masyado nakikilala, madalas pa pagod para maglakwatsa.

nakakalungkot, nakakastress, nakakaiyak..
kaya tuesday pasiyahin moko, kahit sa simpleng bagay lang oh.. Gusto ko mag-baguio. :/

effin monday.

ayoko ng pinaparamdam sakin na kayo ko mawala, kasi yun yung pinaka-masakit na pinaramdam sakin nung huli, ayon yung hinding hindi kona gusto mafeel. kung ganyan ka, tama na. im sorry, pero mabilis ako mawalan ng gana pagdating sa ganyang eksena.

wow. :)

ARIES - The Aggressive (March 21 to April 19)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny... Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an Aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.

Because I'm now an ADULT.

This time Love is more real and amazing.

♥

After my last relationship,
I came to a point where I lose faith in Love.
It made me cry morning unto midnight..
I abode sorrow and pain.

I was maddened, depressed, chafed.
I started hating Love, it is just a waste of my
fucking time. Horrible.

But then, I met you..

you're wonderful being altered my belief.
I draw back into believing fairy tales, happy endings.
be all ears to love songs, and keep my eyes open
to romantic movies and books.

Thank you for coming into my life. I love you,
I love you so much my Pepper Potts, my Chloe...

From: Ironman Alvarez

random thoughts..

Lagi daw may mas higit na nagmamahal.
yun kaya yung di agad nakakamove on after ng break-up? 

pladding....

i'd rather post here than pissed someone on facebook cause of pladding shits. :) #nonsense

Diet as Tolerated

tapsilog for breakfast, lasang hamburger.. >,<

Good morning Sunday :)

May God bless us all.. :)

The beast OB nurses! :)

with Ma'am Jerwin and Ate Khai. :)

:"(

hindi kona napanuod si IRONMAN.

Much has been change..

Ngayon,

hindi nako nalelate.. minsan nga 30minutes early pako lalo sa work.. :)

hindi kona gusto ang one more chance, pero love ko padin si John Loyd. :)

vneck shirts na trip ko and poloshirts, ayuku na ng longsleeves. :)

hindi nako araw-araw umiinom,  once a month na lang or pagmay okasyon. :)

ngayon, mahilig nako magpicture, kahit subrang panget ng camera ko. :)

hindi nako ganun kadaldal ngayon, pero nagpapatawa padin naman ako. :)

mahilig nako magtravel, ALONE. :)

marame ng nagsabe na nag-mature nako. :)

Guess, I grew p for the better.  To God be the Glory.

Playing....

Stuck On YOU - Dez Duron.

Manunuba

the safest online store.. LOL :)

I hate saying goodbye to people, even when I know it's for the best.

Luxury ♥

lighting a cigar after making love.

hi..

Sana binasa mo, minsan seattle's tayo.
Coffee jelly sayo, Dark mocha sakin.
Tapos sabay tayong sisindi ng marlboro black.. :)
wag natin sayangin yung friendship na nabuo
throughout our relationship, commitment lang nawala.
I can be a good friend. gusto mo best friend pa...

ayoko ng di marunong mag-goodnight kasi baka makasanayan ko din na dina magpaalam.hanggang sa pate goodmorning dikona magawa.

Parang may ginawa kong di tama. 

nggggiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D

first year college >,<

1yr old :)

Happiness is real when shared. ♥

merci beaucoup belle ♥

You said you're not easy, I agreed.
A month of stalking and waiting.
Finally, you respond and now you're into me. LOL :)

Prolly by now you're cuddled 
in your comforter. I can't stop 
thinking of you babe, and so I made this ryhmes and 
lines not to impress you, 
but written actually to Thank you. 

Thank you for reading my blogs, 
rants, heartaches and mostly the non sense that I write. 

Thank you for staying up late, 
I certainly know you sleepyhead.

Thank you for replying to my 
messages that are redundant. Thank you for your 
calls, hearing your voice makes my dark days
extra special.

Thank you for being the being that occupies my heart.

Thank you for being my first thought in the morning,
and the last before I head to bed. 

Thank you for your tight hugs and sweet kisses,
also to your dagan and dantay. 

Sweetie, I have so much to thank, these are just a few.
Lets move to the deeper part, If i'll have the chance I'll say these words loud and proud.

Thank you for being one of the reasons why I thank God everyday.

Thank you for being my serenity, my bliss, my happiness.

Lastly, 

Thank you for being the woman of my dreams. 
the apotheosis of love.

I won't stop yearning for you, You're truly stunning.
I love you Chloe of San Fernando, Pampangga.


From: JM of Makati City, Metro Manila.

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Tired.

very tired...

anong kalokohan to? O_O

I

LOVE

you

CHLOE

:)

:))))))))))))))

Dear CHLOE,

hi banana, baby, babe, honey, sweetie, bee, my Chloe..

you made my heart skip a beat. you made each day of my life complete. from grumpy you made me happy. not only you've brought the color of love instead you put rainbows in my dark blue sky. you're my everyday sunshine, you're my smile, you're my forever crush, you're my soon to be girlfriend and future wifey but only if you'll let me ask this thingy.

hmmm, CAN I COURT YOU SWEETIE?

pagod nako sa salitang hihintayin kita. baka hindi pa talaga.
tahimik munako, hindi ko alam pano na. msaya sana kung walang
ganto. baka sign to. lalayo nako. bahala na.
balik sa date, trabaho. trabaho. pagod uwe tulog. bow.

TANGINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

isang taon...

bilis ng panahon, parag kelan lang iyak ako ng iyak,
tulala, naglalasing, hindi alam san pupunta, nakahiga, ayaw magising,
ayaw huminga, gusto ng mawala. in short "walang kwenta".
bute tapos nako dun, masarap din minsan balikan,
ngayon, masaya nako...isang taon, minahal ko sarili ko.
isang taon na puro ako, ako, ako.
isang taon na sinikap kong simulan
yung mga plano ko sa buhay, stable na trabaho ko.
pitong taon mula sa araw na to, magsisismula ko ng medisina.
isang taong pagsisiskap. habang buhay na pasasalamat.
naget kona sinabe ng isang mabuteng tao sa buhay ko,
subukang mag-isa ng makita ko ang buhay.
naaninag ko na, ngayon paunte-unte lumiliwanag.
nakikita kona. magtutuloy-tuloy to, hndi pwedeng hindi.
boring pag-sumuko.

early morning tsismisan. :)

gggooooooooolay!

aga-aga kinikilabutan ako sa itsura mo..

i'll be spending a night at laguna tomorrow.
not that excited,

first: my dearest Indian friend can't come cause of his schedule.

second: suddenly i'm just not in the mood to be happy.

third: i'm dead tired, 3 straight days, 2-10 duty.

fourth: someone ultra pissed me off, i'm wishing her a life full of misery.

fifth: too lazy to pack my things.11:15pm got my travel bag to prepare. hence,  After two hours, still my bag is empty.

Prolly, tom i'll just sleep all day. hopefully the rooms are airconditioned. 

I'm not easy but i'm worth it..

--ooooooh, challenging.

Anti - One More Chance dramas.

Me browsing feeds at Facebook. Then I saw this post.

"Thanks for everything, for sharing good memories..blah, blah, blah........
One minute ago
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
it sucks when someone post a "farewell message", five minutes after a shitty break-up. people around you tend to pacify, show how they care and worry at you, commenting things that will comfort and let you feel your not alone that the bastard is just a waste of time and love. that someone better will be your prince charming, the person that will prove forever exist..

then...
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"thank you so much guys, we're now Ok".
12minutes ago

FCUK YOU TE!  did you just posted the shit to get the guys attention? I hope not, cause its very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very CHEAP.

I bet when that girl post the same crap, people won't buy her dramas, even I will comment with this sign ",,!,,". Ma'am please always remember this idiom "A woman of her words". Do what ever you've said. In tagalog, Manindigan. 

weirdo.

nakakamiss yung feeling na broken hearted.

#jgh

hindi ako makatuloggggggg... :((((((((((

definitely not interested.

maybe we could hit some few bottles and do whatever comes :)

-- received a message from a stranger at downelink. Do whatever comes? 
and what would that whatever means? like zipline? haha booo me. anyhoo,
I ignored her message. Her "Whatever" could lead to a night of regrets. pft.

Census: 11 mommies; 3 babies.

with nurse jalybee and yanna. :) #freshness

tsk!

hindi naman yung babae issue pre, alam naman na natin totoo dun.
sakin lang nagawa mokong siraan.
bute sana kung ibang tao ka, maiintindihan ko. E hindi pre
para na kitang kapatid. Ayun, mapapatawad din kita.

Next decade siguro..lol :)

This made me cry.

Sana lahat ganton, sana lahat marunong magpasalamat kesa magreklamo.
Sana lahat nakaka-appreciate, Sana lahat katulad ng pasyenteng ito. :)

Mommy,

Alam mo ba dapat aabsent ako ngayon,
pagod kasi ko sa bakasyon from baguio, pero dahil gusto kong personal
na makita ang sulat mo, papasok nako, eto na bumangon nako para
makundisyon oh. Maraming salamat po.Isa kang inspirasyon sa
araw-araw na pagsusuot ko ng puting uniform.

Pinasaya moko. nawa'y mabuti ang kalagayan niyo ni baby mo. :)

Love,
JM Alvarez, RN..

Me: ma, buy him slippers i'll pay laters.

Mama: Anu ba ang Vondutch tatak ng damit?

Me: Oo tatak yun ma. hahaha bkit?

Mama: ang mahal.

pft. :)

almss..almsss.. :)

malapit nako tumanda.. O_O

#mezzanorte #technohub

Mukha lang Masarap.

Happy tummy for a job well done. :)

Thanks bed 8..! :)

Mama: joaaaaan!!!! ang tamad mo.

Me: Maghanap ka na lang ng katulong ko, i'll pay and please yung pretty. :)

Mama: *walkout*

LOL :)))

readingggggggggg.........

wikihow to play the slot machine. pft.

#imadeface

Fine, masyadong maganda yan.. lol :)

^____^

four stressful days to go..then BAGUIO with my fambam.

What happens in isla stays in isla. :)

just got home.

from 10pm to 6am shift.

0926 - 9 1 7 4 5 0 2

kamusta? text mo ko.

bored,

damn it.

kahit nakaka-trauma...

Sinubukang mag DL baka may humabol sa valentine's..aha! :)

Happy Valentine's Day! :)

♥♥♥

Pft.

Nakita kona ang pinakaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa magandang doctor sa buong buhay ko. ♥
Ang sarap magkasakit kung siya lang din ang gagamot. Kaso badvibes ang suplada.

At dahil araw ng undas, este PUSO..

Pano ba? Pano ba mag paramdam ng pagmamahal?
Kailangan ba ma-hal? as in literal na pagbibigay ng mamahaling gamet,
kain sa mamahaling restaurant,  mamahaling tsokolate at bulaklak?

haha wala lang nag- intro lang.. anyways,

Para sakin "Love has no Gender"..
babae sa lalake, babae sa babae, tomboy sa babae,
lalake sa bakla, bakla sa bakla.. Pantay lahat yan,
nagkaiba lang sa way ng pagpaparamdam..

Sabe nila mas matindi daw magmahal kapag
kapareho ang kasarian, yung iba sinasabe the beast magmahal mga
tommy and gays kasi all out..

hmmmm.. hindi naman ako naniniwala dun,
Eh, wala padin hihigit sa pagmamahalan ng
isang lalakeng ihaharap ang babae sa altar,
at sa pagmamahal ng isang babaeng handang
panindigan ang kanyang magiging kabiyak sa harap ng Diyos.

Moving forward... masyado kong naging seryoso at medyo nalayo sa dapat na topic..haha :)

Ang hirap mag-stabilize ng relationship, oh ako lang hirap?
Noon, kasi lage ko iniisip na naku baka naboboringan na sya,
panay aya ko ng kape, sine, hala kain dito, pataba dun, pataba dyan.
Lahat na halos ng restaurant nacheck-in kona sa facebook.
Lageng may co-curricular activities..ultimo zipline hala sige kahit
mamatay matay na sa takot, mawork lang tong partneship na to.

Tangina, nakakapagod promise. Ayun, ending break din pala. O_O

Ngayon, eto na yung mas trip kong pagpaparamdam ng pag-mamahal.
Bro, di literal na ma-hal, walang pricetag to, walang bill out, walang entrance fee
na gaya sa mga theme park..

Simple lang mag-mahal. Takte dame kopa gimmicks nung araw.

1. Yung moment lang na nakahiga kayo, yakap mo sya, o yakap ka niya. PUTCHA
priceless pre! compare mo sa panunuod ng sine tangina 180-200 tapos
di mo naman talaga trip storya, di mopa mahawakan kamay ni girlfriend kasi may drinks na naka harang sa silya..haha :)

2. Yung moment na  bigla ka mag a "iloveyou". Shet! tulala, ultra kilig. Hindi na kailangan ng mga tarpaulin, billboards sa edsa or banner. Pre, laway lang puhunan mo, banggitin mo lang, biglaan sa tamang timing, swak! sabay kiss. :)

3. Yung moment na bisitahin mo sa trabaho/school, dala ka roses kahit isang piraso, wagka mahiya sa mga tao, magbitbit ka ng bulaklak, sabay bitbit ng pagkain niluto mo. Fuckery! pre kahit ang panget panget mo sa paningin ng girlfriend mo ang gwapo gwapo mo na biglaan ha! and ov course mas mamahalin kapa. :)

4. Yung moment na kahit jollibee lang, value meal everydate pwede na. Importante habang kumakain kayo nakakapag-usap kayo, nagkakamustahan kayo, nalalaman mong masaya siya, pagod, or malungkot. Kesa yung sa mamahaling restaurant nga, tahimik ka naman kakacompute ng bill sa isip mo. haha :)

5. Yung moment na, umupo lang kayo kahit sa seaside ng MOA, hawak kamay, nakasandal sya sayo. Di ba ang bilis ng oras kapag kasama mo si bf/gf? Panget sayangin sa kakalakad, wala naman katuturan, ending pagod pa.

Ayun, tinamad nako mag-type...

Basta ang pagmamahalan dinadahan-dahan.
Di ba lahat naman naniniwala sa forever? mahaba pa ang lalakbayin ng bawat relasyon,
Kung mamadaliin niyo mabuo lahat ng memories, e mauubusan kayo.

Ending..,

pareho niyo marerealize na hindi na masaya, wala ng magic, wala ng excitement.
hanggang sa mawala na yung kayo, meron na lang ikaw at siya. 


meow. ><>

Hi Starfish! :)

The more i'm afraid of something, the more i have to do it. the more it might hurt, the more i might die doing it. the more worth doing it must be - the L word

pwede ba?

pwede bang subrang mamiss kita.

Studyanteng Nars.

Ilalathala ko muna ang Inspirasyon kung bakit nabuo ang kwentong ito:

Pasok sa Ward, census sangkatutak.
Biglang pasok ang mga Studyante ng isang Unibersidad.

Yay! Salamat sa Diyos!

May taga vital signs at bigay ng medications. haha :)
Biglang kalagitnaan ng duty ako'y nagflashback ng aking buhay

"Studyanteng Nars." ... halika basahin mo makakarelate ka ng bongga.

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Sisimulan ko ang kwento sa outfit ko nung araw, Kapag duty kasi ng isang studyanteng nars ay madalas naka white dress, apron at nursing cap. Imaginin mo nakadress na papatungan pa ng apron, oha! san kapa? edi pawisan kana. :)

Susunod natin ang kagamitan na kailangan laging bitbit kapag magduduty na:

...Kapag sa community may tinatawag na "CHN bag" ang isang studyanteng nars, itim yun na leather. Kompleto ang kagamitan, ultimo lampara meron yun ha! haha :) tapos naaalala kopa nun napaka mahiwaga ng bag na yun na kailangan pa naming gumawa ng sapin niya. Kailangan din ng studyanteng nars ng itim na payong kapag sya ay nasa komunidad, ito'y para ipanghawi sa asong pakalat-kalat. haha :)

...Kapag naman sa hospital ang isang studyanteng nars ay kailangan magbitbit ng sangkatutak na kasangkapan, madalas stethoscope, bp app, thermometer, at eto ah! magkahiwalay na canister ng cottonballs, isa sa wet isa sa dry, tape measure, surgical scissor, penlight, tri-color pen, tickler, ayan na lang naaalala ko..haha etooooo pinakamatindi dyan! LAHAT yan asa BULSA! haha dakila! :)

Moving forward..

Ang bawat studyanteng nars ay may guro ang tawag sa kanila ay "CI" hindi yan check inn ah, haha "Clinical Instructors" yan te, sila ang taga gabay saamin nung araw. :) Ang bawat CI ay mag-aassign ng patient sa studyanteng nars na kanyang aalagaan buong shift at gagawan ng NCP, Drugstudy, Case Presentation. Ganyan nung araw saamin, ewan kona lang ngayun. :)

Kembot na ulit tayo sa kwento marame nakong nashare masyado. haha

Ayun nga, kapag may studyanteng nars sa ward madalas sila ang taga vital signs, at siempre sila din ang magpplot nun, laking tulong sobra! naalala ko nung diko pa gamay ang pagpplot ng VS katulad nila, nangangapa pako, isang chart inaabot ako ng kulang kulang 5minutes, tapos another 5minutes para sa I&O. Kakabahan pako nian, iisipin ko tama ba pinagsusulat ko..haha :)

Ang iilang studyanteng nars at kasama ko dyan nung araw e pagmag BBP dahan-dahan, uulitin pa yan kasi mahina yung tunog,at para tignan kung tama talaga ang data. Mapalad na nga ang mga studyanteng nars ngayun at ang thermometer ay digital na, nuong ako'y studyanteng nars di taktak pa ang thermometer, madalas nababasag, Ang karamihan naman sa studyanteng nars ay laging pasimple kung bumilang ng RR, kunyare PR kinukuha. Tama ba?hihi :)

Tapos eto pa.. Ang studyanteng nars ay nangangailangan ng limang normal spontaneous delivery case handle and assist, upang makapag board exam, tawag dyan ay cases. :)

Unang araw sa aking pagduduty ay natapat ako sa Delivery room, Ang isang studyanteng nars ay naka scrubsuit kapag special ang area katulad na lang din pag asa Operating room. Bilang inosente sa lahat ng aking makita ako'y natulala sa panunuod ng isang babaeng manganganak, haha natural babae alangan naman baklita anu? haha ba yan tinabla ko sarili ko.

Anyways,

Natulala, napatitig, napalunok.. BIGLANG! boooooom! si mother na asa gilid ko, pumutok panubigan, haha nasiritan ako, shet slimy! Scrub-out agad. Punas, punas, ayan kasi tatanga-tanga, si mother naman di man lang nag-excuse may sisisrit pala sa pempem niya. haha :)

Ending, nanganak si mother ng nakahawak sa pakalat kalat kong braso, na hanggang matapos e nakabaon yung kuko niya sakin, kulang na lang pate ako sumigaw sa sakit..

Lesson: Kung hindi ka kailangan, sa sulok ka lang tumambay. HAHA :)
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Maraming masayang karanasan ang isang studyanteng nars. Kakaiba ang bonding ng group, sabay sabay kayo pupuntang hospital, kakain, uuwe. Pinaka-ayaw ko lang naman nung araw ay ang studyanteng nars malimit nakakaupo lalo kapag-asa area, sana pwede yung bring your on bangko no? haha :)

Ayun lang, Namiss ko lang bigla. Salamat sa mga nakakaduty kong studyanteng nars,Mabuhay kayo! :)
at para sa iilan lang naman na nakita kong maaangas na studyanteng nars, chill lang. Mahaba-haba pa ang lalakbayin niyo, be humble at please wagmagyosi kung saan-saan, masagwa phwoeshz tignan. Salamat!:)

Nagmamahal, 

Isang dating studyanteng nars.

Addendum: Karamihan sa mga studyanteng nars ay mapera, marahil kasi kapag malayo ang duty malake ang dagdag sa BAON.haha tama ba? :) nung araw kapag sa maynila ang duty ko matic na yun si Ninoy ang iaabot. hihi :)

weeeew!

medyo nawawala na stress ko..nga pala may bago kong krash na dockie. :)

grabe.

ang sweet pala namin date, ngayon ko lang naappreciate. O_O

tsktsk.. ge next year na lang.

Year of the Snake: Single Dragon people will not find happiness with a new mate this year. They would be advised to stay single and be content for a while in their own company.

I do not like this day.

GREAT!

GUTOM na GUTOM, tapos paguwe black-out.

 tangina. tangina talaga, ultraaaaaa tangina!!!

PIECE PEACE YOW! :)))

--HAHAHAHA. >:)

--seseryosohin ko padin ang advise ng aking nakakatandang kaibigan kahit medyo tanga. >:)

p*takte!

ang dame kopala gagawin nawala sa isip ko, naglakwatsa pako magdamag. O_O

Oh antok dalawin moko! Please lang,

Nakahiga.

Naglakad ng saktong layo..

Nagsuba...

Nagbuko shake....

Nakipagdaldalan kay Qhuey.....

Naglakad ulit pauwe ng saktong layo......

Nagkompyuter.......

Humiga ulit........

Ikot, ikot, ikot.........

Kinig Music..........

Pikit, mulat, pikit, mulat...........

Bangon............

Blog..............

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......!

Yummeh. :)

I had pritong galunggong for dinner. Nakakamiss mag-eat ng ><>

Blind date?

Am I in or out? >,<

Minsan hindi naman dahilan ang taong date mong minahal,
bakit hindi mopa kayang balikan ulit ang isang lugar.

Minsan basta ayaw mo lang. Hindi sa kasi madameng masayang nanyare,
hindi rin dahil sa maraming masakit. Pwede pa siguro na kada makikita mo
nasasayangan ka? kasi.....

Minsan kana nga lang magseryoso at mangako, hindi pa natupad?
Pero lam mo ang totoo, eto hindi na minsan kundi madalas...

hmmmmmmmmmmm...

kasi NAKAKATAMAD. ang layo ng lugar na dating malapit kasi may kalandian ka sa daan.

>:')

Parang kaya kona tumambay sa Seattle's best MOA. Again, Parang lungs. :)

I'm sick! :'(((((

sipon.

Convo Killer 101.

? : hi..
Me: hello, how are you?
? : I'm ok, eto tumataba na sabe mo kasi you like chubby girls di ba.
Me: A, k.

... HAHA >:)

Burning my Time 5! :)

Is there someone you’d really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
...ahh yeah. hihi ^___^
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
...without ifs and buts..Yes. :D
Where was the last place you went besides your house?
...hospital somewhere in makati.
What’s the worst thing you’ve gone through in the past year?
...worst? my heart has been broken.
Could you ever be friends with the person that hurt you most in life?
...why not, that's how mature people act.
When did you last cry? 
...Christmas day, 2012. Nagdrama lungs.
Have you ever trusted someone too much? 
...Yes, A lot.
Who’s the first person you argued with today? 
...none so far.
Do you sleep with your window open? 
...no, baka pasukin ng mahirap naming kapit-bahay sa likod. haha jk >:)
Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
...no, I can ride through their trip.
Does anyone ever spell your name wrong?
...Ahh yep,my first name. "Johanna - Joana"
Have you ever kissed on a bed?
...pft. yes.
What’s one action you do when you’re really nervous? 
...super nail bite :(
This time last year, do you remember who you liked? 
...yes, i still do. kilig, kilig, kilig. :)
What would you do if it snowed right now? 
...picture! haha inusente.
How tall are you?
...5'3
When’s the last time you fell asleep watching a movie? 
...A year ago (drive yata title nun). Putek super boring! Puro usap!
What’s the last thing you laughed really hard over?
...can't remember. lage kasi ko OA tumawa. >,<
What was the last drink you had?
..San Miggoy Lights. My favorite.
Do you remember the last time you liked someone a lot?
...yes, my college crush upto now crush kopa. 8years na si Tina. :)
Your most recent ex, do they have boyfriend/​​​​​girlfriend?​​​​​ 
...recent? should I consider her? aha! yes, I guess? haha
What’s the last thing to make you mad? 
...getting my hopes up then disappoint me.
Your ex needs you at 3 am, do you go? 
...if I'm free, no doubts I'll be there.
Has anyone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? 
...Ahh, kanina if magdodobidooo daw ano una huhubarin daw saknya! howmaygawd. Ew. O_O KILABUTAN. Again, EW. >,<
Do you regret doing something today? 
 ...uhmm...no, wala naman kasi ko ginawa. >,<

Honestly, what are you thinking about right now?
...Economics and Accounting. haha weird. damn it.
What’s most important in a relationship: honesty or trust?
...TRUST.
Tattoos? 
...Soon, at my back.
Piercings? 
...Ears.
Would you rather be single or in a relationship?
...For now, mas ok Single. :)
Do you like to cuddle? 
...who doesn't? who? who? who? sasampalin ko! haha :)
Whats better, amazing eyes or amazing smile? 
...Amazing Smile! yung cute yung teeth.
Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
...LOL.
If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?
...No, experience is the best teacher. no regrets, no turning back. Acceptance.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
...I don't wanna assume. :)
Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
...Yes, my super bff is a boy.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
...Of course. Pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaasssssssseeeeeeee!