i know i messed up. tsk

fools note.

"Love? That's JUST a big piece of sh*t." 


Oh yeah, my previous mentality about love. That was the time that my mind was full of childish and teenage stuff like video games, net surfing, watching TV, etc. Yeah, I spent my teenage life with those useless shits (as what my ex have always told me). Definitely the big reason why I am so naive when it comes to love, ugh. I feel like hating myself for exposing myself to this ever famous ambiguous feeling called LOVE in such a late stage. Maybe I should have been curious when I was young, I bet that would be an advantage. No, I'm pretty sure about it. 


*Boom!* And there it goes, I was blinded, as if a flashbang was thrown at me. She had me on her strings.

For a relationship like ours, staying together would be the appropriate term. I admit my betise, because it is entirely IMPOSSIBLE. I failed to exhibit a good sense of judgment. I certainly regret that I have beLIEved everything that she says. 

The happiness she brought me was undeniably delightful to my sensations, emotionally. But it was ephemeral, in contrast to the pain and suffering that effortlessly make way to ruin my everyday life. 


So, she broke my heart. I feel like every breath I take would be my last. But this is not the end, I have to get hold of myself and be stronger than I was before we met. 


So God help me, Amen. 

i don't kiss and tell.

fcuk day.

ever had this feeling of sadness cause of losing someone that has never been yours?
i'm hurting like a man who is having an myocardial infarction attack.
why do i have to be an ass. bullshit i wanna die then just be alive by September 11.

ugh! fuck jm why did you do such thing. fuck never in your entire life you fucking do that. what the fuck happened to you yesterday. arent you thinking that fuck shes not fucking yours and what the fuck your fucking acts are fucking unacceptable. damn it. :(

now your expecting a message from her butthead jm. booooo! die jm die.

you deserve it.

to my angel.

Hi sweetie! how're you? kamusta sa heaven? :)
Gusto kona lang yata sumunod sayo mukhang masaya ka e.haha JK.
Hindi ka bumababa para magparamdam..
or di ka lang talaga nagpapakita kasi alam mong takot
ako sa ghost kahit sobrang ganda at taba pa? :)

Umiiyak ako ngayun. Nakakainis. Another failed relationship.
Siguro kung katabe kita pinagmumura monako tsaka
may bukol nako kaka batok mo no? Kilala kita e.
Pag umiiyak ako imbes na kaawaan moko nanggugulpi kapa dyan.
Last word monga ata sakin ty "TANGA"...haha :)
mamamatay kana lang bad word pa lumalabas sayo.

Comfort moko sweetie pls? babaka ka saglit? :(
Promise diako matatakot pero dahan dahan ka lang sa pag-labas ah?
Bat naman kasi ang aga mo natapos mission mo sa mundo.tsk
Sana makasama kita sa dreamland. Dun lang muna.
Madame pa gusto mangyare sa buhay ko e.

Sweetie! hmp! dalawin mo yun nagpapaiyak sakin ngayun!
di ba bully ka to the maximum level?! samplelan mo naman oh!
nakakapikon! sinusumpong nako.. :( game!batukan monako sa inarte ko!
yung malakas tipong 1month mahihiwalay soul ko sa katawan ko.
kailangan ko ng isang buwan ty para maheal lahat ng sakit. :'(

Basahin mo to ah! i'm missing you so much.
Ty, curious lang, may alak ba sa langit? panu ka dyan?
tubig tubig at juice lang ganun? hahaha KAWAWA.

ciao! ♥


><> late post.

Thoughts about Deception: Theorem or Mysticism?

Deception - the art of making falsehood appear like the truth. 

Being deceived is one of the worst things that could ever happen in your life.It may happen at any point of your life, you just don't know when, how, and who would lure you into it. Just hope that it's not someone very close to your heart as it'll be more excruciating  than you have ever imagined.

But, there's a way to prevent this mischance from happening. One warning though, this won't make you invulnerable to the pain you are about to sustain upon bringing this to your knowledge. Decoding deception is quite tricky at first, but little by little, you'll have yourself familiar with the mechanics. 

Start by scrutinizing every little detail in that person you've been suspecting. Pay close attention to every word that person says everytime you engage into a conversation, note his/her facial expression, eye movements, and body language. Also, notice if there are any changes in his/her respiration, it usually goes faster and deeper as the body responds to stress, the stress of lying. But, if the person has mastered the art of dictating his/her body's response to this detestable activity, then a lot more experience is recommended. Meaning that it is imperative that you get deluded for several times to decipher the ruse.

So, who's gonna deceive you? Unfortunately, the potential slicker would be someone you trust, as it's the main ingredient of the recipe. This is the most enigmatic part for you will experience a severe conflict in your head on whom to trust or not. If you're good enough to care for what others feel if they figured out that you do not trust them, what would you do to take care of it? Do you think they will just say "Amen" to your defense? I don't think so. Face the consequence of your action, you'll not only lose their trust but these people as well.

 

 

><>reblog

facts

>> Quite annoying but I always smile when someone says " hmp!".. A friend told me once " Inis nanga ko nagsmile kapa!".. I can't help it.. Ang cute kaya.. hmp! ;))

>> I love eating street foods.. Oh only my truest friends know that.. Most peeps think I'm picky with what I ingest.. Only if they knew I'm a big fan of Fishball and Isaw..! ;)

>> Me used to be a duck during my younger years.. An " Ugly duckling" to be specific.. I hate taking pictures BUT now that I'm a fishy.. I started to embrace flashes while doing the Japan sign.. Peace! ^_~

>> Even if it is Mainit.. I'am used to wearing long-sleeves or Jackets.. Its better to be overdress ryt? Ang jacket ng mayabang..Yeah! ;)

>> When I smell jealousy in the air.. weew! swear I'm shivering inside.. Kilig much! First I'll do the tanga tangahan move asking " Nagseselos ka ba?" Then d' girl would reply " Di ah..!" I'll ask back "weh?!"

Girl says " Fine. Oo na."..haha  kalaglag upuan di ba? ;))

My First P.I.P

PIP = a memo letter given to someone who has come up with a very low production.

Yup I started my day by signing it.. But no worries I won't ruined my day for such a thing. I know I didn't performed well this past few weeks. Main reason is that I'm no longer happy with what am I doing. Broken hearted shit. And also I'm dealing with separation anxiety cause my best bud Awit resigned. One of my friends told me if your no longer happy still go to work BUT bring a resignation letter with you..;)

I remembered what the HR manager told me when she interviewed me few months ago.. She knows I'm very good it shows at my face and actions.(nanguuto pa).

><>way back june..

My premature ventricular contractions.. ^__^

Goooossshh..! ano ba tong feeling na to. So unexplainable.. urgh! kinikilig ako. haha ;)
haven't felt these for quite some time.  Sakit na ng panga ko kakasmile.. sheems! ang bilis niya magreply tapos alam mo yun? haha para ko bulate dito di mapakale kaka-ikot.. ^____________^

Sarap ng feeling para ko tanga ba yan nagpapacute ako sa harap ng monitor..haha lam mo yung feeling na tumatawag sya tapos dimo maclick ung green button kasi dimo alam kung pano ka mag-hehello..haha ;))
naka sampung modulate muna or cacancel muna yung call tapos kunyare napindot lang di naman tapos pag ok na nakahinga na ng malalim tsaka sasagutin..haha ;) tapos pag nag text naman ung tipong kakasend mo pa lang ng reply gusto mo may text na agad sya ulit..

shocks! ayan nanaman ako naaliw nanaman..tsk tapos mamaya palpak nanamn ending.. Bahala na basta masaya ko.. tska kona lang kkuwento yung iba..Basta She makes my heart skips a beat. Tapos. haha ;)

KINIKILIG TLGA KOOOOOOOO!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!
 ^___________________^

Unfaithful minds..

I saw a couple fighting throwing effin words on each other. 

The girl shouted 

"Tangina ka mamatay kana" 

the guy answered 

"Oo mamatay na lang ako kesa makasama ka".. 

At first couples tend to have the happiest relationship. They're like the princess and prince of their own fairytale. But only few lives happily ever after.. Those who blended Love and Trust with equal treatment. Those who never thought of Lust nor Lie just to escape the boredom of loving his/her only ONE.

I hate it when people cheat on their loved ones. Is the word CONTENTMENT not included in their  minds?What do they get after having fun with other girls/guys? Well, I guess they deserve a crown made of sharps to cut their heads in half...Before, Cheating is most common in guys..But, Girls nowadays are also on the line.. Guess the evolution of equality between two sexes are rampant! Feel free to file concubinage on the chickas now guys..lols =))

I can't see my point on writing this one I just want to express whats on my mind. How I hate UNFAITHFUL creatures in land..! I just hope the pain and sorrow you guys cause won't bring big KARMA in your lives. If you can't stick to one might as well stay single for life. As for my advise there are girls/guys who only passes by, brings you little joy and fun but there is ONE lady/gent who is destined to stop but you just played with him/her around.  Be serious don't play with love cause if emotions plays back.. 101% you'll be growing old alone and miserable. Sad but positively TRUE. ><>