to my angel.

Hi sweetie! how're you? kamusta sa heaven? :)
Gusto kona lang yata sumunod sayo mukhang masaya ka e.haha JK.
Hindi ka bumababa para magparamdam..
or di ka lang talaga nagpapakita kasi alam mong takot
ako sa ghost kahit sobrang ganda at taba pa? :)

Umiiyak ako ngayun. Nakakainis. Another failed relationship.
Siguro kung katabe kita pinagmumura monako tsaka
may bukol nako kaka batok mo no? Kilala kita e.
Pag umiiyak ako imbes na kaawaan moko nanggugulpi kapa dyan.
Last word monga ata sakin ty "TANGA"...haha :)
mamamatay kana lang bad word pa lumalabas sayo.

Comfort moko sweetie pls? babaka ka saglit? :(
Promise diako matatakot pero dahan dahan ka lang sa pag-labas ah?
Bat naman kasi ang aga mo natapos mission mo sa mundo.tsk
Sana makasama kita sa dreamland. Dun lang muna.
Madame pa gusto mangyare sa buhay ko e.

Sweetie! hmp! dalawin mo yun nagpapaiyak sakin ngayun!
di ba bully ka to the maximum level?! samplelan mo naman oh!
nakakapikon! sinusumpong nako.. :( game!batukan monako sa inarte ko!
yung malakas tipong 1month mahihiwalay soul ko sa katawan ko.
kailangan ko ng isang buwan ty para maheal lahat ng sakit. :'(

Basahin mo to ah! i'm missing you so much.
Ty, curious lang, may alak ba sa langit? panu ka dyan?
tubig tubig at juice lang ganun? hahaha KAWAWA.

ciao! ♥


><> late post.

Thoughts about Deception: Theorem or Mysticism?

Deception - the art of making falsehood appear like the truth. 

Being deceived is one of the worst things that could ever happen in your life.It may happen at any point of your life, you just don't know when, how, and who would lure you into it. Just hope that it's not someone very close to your heart as it'll be more excruciating  than you have ever imagined.

But, there's a way to prevent this mischance from happening. One warning though, this won't make you invulnerable to the pain you are about to sustain upon bringing this to your knowledge. Decoding deception is quite tricky at first, but little by little, you'll have yourself familiar with the mechanics. 

Start by scrutinizing every little detail in that person you've been suspecting. Pay close attention to every word that person says everytime you engage into a conversation, note his/her facial expression, eye movements, and body language. Also, notice if there are any changes in his/her respiration, it usually goes faster and deeper as the body responds to stress, the stress of lying. But, if the person has mastered the art of dictating his/her body's response to this detestable activity, then a lot more experience is recommended. Meaning that it is imperative that you get deluded for several times to decipher the ruse.

So, who's gonna deceive you? Unfortunately, the potential slicker would be someone you trust, as it's the main ingredient of the recipe. This is the most enigmatic part for you will experience a severe conflict in your head on whom to trust or not. If you're good enough to care for what others feel if they figured out that you do not trust them, what would you do to take care of it? Do you think they will just say "Amen" to your defense? I don't think so. Face the consequence of your action, you'll not only lose their trust but these people as well.

 

 

><>reblog

facts

>> Quite annoying but I always smile when someone says " hmp!".. A friend told me once " Inis nanga ko nagsmile kapa!".. I can't help it.. Ang cute kaya.. hmp! ;))

>> I love eating street foods.. Oh only my truest friends know that.. Most peeps think I'm picky with what I ingest.. Only if they knew I'm a big fan of Fishball and Isaw..! ;)

>> Me used to be a duck during my younger years.. An " Ugly duckling" to be specific.. I hate taking pictures BUT now that I'm a fishy.. I started to embrace flashes while doing the Japan sign.. Peace! ^_~

>> Even if it is Mainit.. I'am used to wearing long-sleeves or Jackets.. Its better to be overdress ryt? Ang jacket ng mayabang..Yeah! ;)

>> When I smell jealousy in the air.. weew! swear I'm shivering inside.. Kilig much! First I'll do the tanga tangahan move asking " Nagseselos ka ba?" Then d' girl would reply " Di ah..!" I'll ask back "weh?!"

Girl says " Fine. Oo na."..haha  kalaglag upuan di ba? ;))

My First P.I.P

PIP = a memo letter given to someone who has come up with a very low production.

Yup I started my day by signing it.. But no worries I won't ruined my day for such a thing. I know I didn't performed well this past few weeks. Main reason is that I'm no longer happy with what am I doing. Broken hearted shit. And also I'm dealing with separation anxiety cause my best bud Awit resigned. One of my friends told me if your no longer happy still go to work BUT bring a resignation letter with you..;)

I remembered what the HR manager told me when she interviewed me few months ago.. She knows I'm very good it shows at my face and actions.(nanguuto pa).

><>way back june..

My premature ventricular contractions.. ^__^

Goooossshh..! ano ba tong feeling na to. So unexplainable.. urgh! kinikilig ako. haha ;)
haven't felt these for quite some time.  Sakit na ng panga ko kakasmile.. sheems! ang bilis niya magreply tapos alam mo yun? haha para ko bulate dito di mapakale kaka-ikot.. ^____________^

Sarap ng feeling para ko tanga ba yan nagpapacute ako sa harap ng monitor..haha lam mo yung feeling na tumatawag sya tapos dimo maclick ung green button kasi dimo alam kung pano ka mag-hehello..haha ;))
naka sampung modulate muna or cacancel muna yung call tapos kunyare napindot lang di naman tapos pag ok na nakahinga na ng malalim tsaka sasagutin..haha ;) tapos pag nag text naman ung tipong kakasend mo pa lang ng reply gusto mo may text na agad sya ulit..

shocks! ayan nanaman ako naaliw nanaman..tsk tapos mamaya palpak nanamn ending.. Bahala na basta masaya ko.. tska kona lang kkuwento yung iba..Basta She makes my heart skips a beat. Tapos. haha ;)

KINIKILIG TLGA KOOOOOOOO!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!
 ^___________________^

Unfaithful minds..

I saw a couple fighting throwing effin words on each other. 

The girl shouted 

"Tangina ka mamatay kana" 

the guy answered 

"Oo mamatay na lang ako kesa makasama ka".. 

At first couples tend to have the happiest relationship. They're like the princess and prince of their own fairytale. But only few lives happily ever after.. Those who blended Love and Trust with equal treatment. Those who never thought of Lust nor Lie just to escape the boredom of loving his/her only ONE.

I hate it when people cheat on their loved ones. Is the word CONTENTMENT not included in their  minds?What do they get after having fun with other girls/guys? Well, I guess they deserve a crown made of sharps to cut their heads in half...Before, Cheating is most common in guys..But, Girls nowadays are also on the line.. Guess the evolution of equality between two sexes are rampant! Feel free to file concubinage on the chickas now guys..lols =))

I can't see my point on writing this one I just want to express whats on my mind. How I hate UNFAITHFUL creatures in land..! I just hope the pain and sorrow you guys cause won't bring big KARMA in your lives. If you can't stick to one might as well stay single for life. As for my advise there are girls/guys who only passes by, brings you little joy and fun but there is ONE lady/gent who is destined to stop but you just played with him/her around.  Be serious don't play with love cause if emotions plays back.. 101% you'll be growing old alone and miserable. Sad but positively TRUE. ><>

A Man who have found his Dream.-- Superman

Ang lamig, maulan, ang sarap humiga ang sarap ng may kayakap.

Ang lungkot pero masaya ko para sa isang tao ngayun. 

Ang tagal kasi niya naghintay ng taong magmamahal sakanya ng higit pa sa inaasahan niya.

Madalas kasi siya yung nagmamahal ng sobra tapos sinusukli e pangaabuso sa kabaitan niya.

Naiiyak ako ngayun. Hindi dahil sa personal kong pinagdadaanan,

Tears of Joy ika nga tong nararamdaman ko. Nakita na ni Superman ang Supergirl niya.

Bigla tuloy ako nainspire bigla ko nagkapagasa. 

Kung may dadating man hindi ko iisipin o sasabihin na Mas better sya. 

Mali si Popoy sa sinabe niyang kaya iniiwan tayo ng mga taong mahal natin kasi 

may dadating na mas higit pa. Maling magkumpara.

Para sakin lahat ng minahal ko e the best sa kanya kanya nilang 

paraan. Siguro ang tamang term e. mag-aantay ako ng taong.

"SWAK" sa personalidad ko. Yung taong masasakyan at matatanggap flaws ko.

Katulad ng sinabe sa bible. Lahat ng tao Imperfect. 

Pero kapag pinagtibay sila ng pagmamahal.

Pareho nila makikita ang perfectness sa isa't isa. .Dun nila matatagpuan ang Forever.

Sabe  sa "take my breath away" kung MEANT to be MEANT to be.

May nagsabe naman sakin, Kapag may dumating na iba malalaman ko daw bakit hindi naging sya.

Pero kung may dating gugustuhing pumasok muli magiging mahirap pero baka nga MALI lang kami nung una. Kung anu man dyan mangyare sa mga susunod na araw, buwan o taon e sana worth it lahat,

Sa ngayun isa lang alam ko...

Hindi pako handang magmahal ulit, Pero hindi ko isasara ang puso ko sa mga dadating.

Sana gaya ni Roche sa paghihintay ko may biglang tumabe sakin at bigyan ulit ng kulay ang mundo ko.

Sana gaya naman ni Miyu, mamahalin niya hindi lang ako kundi pate ang mga taong mahal ko.

Faith, Hope and the greatest of all is LOVE, but since ldr kayo isalo niyo ang TRUST. 

yan ang paulit ulit kong sasabihin sainyo. Roche and Miyu lage niyong tandaan.

"LOVE NEVER FAILS".

from: Alex Featherson ><>

PS: hindi yung Trust condom tinutukoy ko ah. lol 

To the Man who prove that death doesn't separate us from our loved ones.

hi big guy! :)

I never had the chance to personally meet you, 

I never had the chance to see your smiles or say hi po tito.

I never had the chance to even hear your voice.

All I can remember is a man lying inside a casket wearing a white barong.

A Man that has been a very good father to his children.

A Man who is love by so many. A good friend.

A faithful husband and a deary son to his Parents.

Wonderin' how can I say this words when I haven't got the chance to know you.

Sir, I thanked God everyday that I have met your daughter.

I thanked him for the chance to know your stories. 

And I know you know how much I thanked you for bringing her into this earth.

I know you have heard my prayers. And I'm thankful that you respond onit.

Mr. Estipona thank you for that wonderful event that has happened yesterday and today.

You made me believe that death doesn't separate us from the people we love.

You somehow scared me though. Thank you for the appreciation. 

I know its you who stayed and watched over me last night.. 

Is it a return of the promise that I have said during your last days on earth? 

I'd love to share the wonderful story with the people who'll take time to read this post. This might help them to also believe that their lost loved ones never did left them. 

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September of 2011 

You were rushed into the hospital. I was shocked and I worried so much. 

When the diagnosis came out I already knew the last stage which is death.

I was at Glorietta with my friends I couldn't stop thinking on your daughter.

And so I went to the hospital to give her support. 

I was walking through the hallway and I stared at the window. I saw your daughter crying so bad.

I heard the machines as if its counting your minutes, hours or days. I felt so bad cause things happened with just one glimpse of an eye. 

I prayed to God and talked to you Sir. This are the exact words.

'' Mr. Estipona, Tito, Sir... I know your in pain, I know you want to wake up and say your last words to your family. Sir, I promise to take care of your daughter and I promise to always be there for her. I hope you'll give your blessing and trust..''

Septembe 26 you passed away. On your last day before I go home I talked to you and say the same words.

I touched your casket, If I can only touch your hands i'll prolly do that. May you rest in peace Mr. Estipona. This are My last words.

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May-June 2012

J and I has been down to the end of the road. This days was so harsh for me. 

Until the day that it is confirmed. There's someone else that's making her happy.

I cried so bad that I can no longer breathe. I was drenched with tears.

And so I prayed. And the MAGICAL moment happened. ^___^

Nanghingi ako ng strength. Lord God I need it badly. 

paulit- ulit lang yan sinasabe ko. Hanggang bigla ko naisip na kausapin 

ka Tito Ben. 

Lord God can I speak to him and then I gave a moment of silence. then I continued praying and talking.

Tito, Sorry sa nangyare, sorry if I cause to much pain on her. 

Yung promise ko po hindi ko padin bibitawan.

Pero sana maintindihan niyo na hindi nako laging nasa tabe niya.

Patawad kung masama loob ko saknya............... 

(mahaba ang mga nasabe ko, pero yan ang pinaka thought at tanging maisheshare ko. )

Sa pagdarasal ko lage ko naglalaan ng katahimikan at nagaantay ng sagot kahit alam ko na wala naman magrereply. Naalala ko yung tinext ko kay J..

'' Feel his presence through the wind that can be his hugs or through the sound of the shaking trees and humming birds for it can be his voice.''

Nasabe ko sa prayer ko ''TITO, KUNG NARINIG MO DASAL KO PWEDE BAKO MAKARINIG NG HUMMING OF A BIRDS.''

Nakataklob ako umiiyak biglang nakarinig ako ng mahinang ''twit' diko pinansin baka guniguni ko lang.

Dasal pako ulit kung huni ba ng ibon yun? Biglang may nag ''Twit'' ulit medyo malakas na. Natakot nako ng konte tumabe ko sa kapatid ko. Tapos pagsilip ko sa labas ng Kumot may super lakas na 'TWIT'.

Subrang fear ko ghost, subrang duwag ako sa ganyang aspeto pero nung nangyare yun natulala ko na napasmile. Tama bako? sinagot mo yung hiningi konga sign? narinig mo dasal ko tito? Ayoko mag-assume. Pero kinikilabutan ako pagnaiisip ko at kinilabutan din friends ko nung shinare ko nangyare.

2am hanggang umaga diako nakatulog.. hindi rin ako tumigil ng pagiyak.. Hanggang sa magliwanag na at nagdasal ako ulit. The entire morning nakarinig nako ng humming ng birds. Tagal kong dinaka rinig nun at to think  it was raining so bad at may mga ibon na kumakanta habang umiiyak ako.

Binantayan mobako? Kung oo tito maraming salamat po. Maraming salamat na nakita niyo sa langit ganu ko kamahal at inalagaan anak niyo. Maraming salamat at dinamayan moko. Ramdam ko nafeel niyo burden ko. 

Salamat Mr. Estipona, Sir, Tito Ben. ^___^

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I know soon or by this time may ipapakilala na syang bagong tao sa buhay niya. 

I know you'll also give your blessings. I know by writing this entry some people will view it in a negative way.

Alam ko iisipin ginagamit kita to win her back. Sana maniwala sila na labas na naging relationship namin ni J sa kwentong to at sa nangyare.

Sir, you've been one of the reasons why naging strong kami nun. Wala nako ibang sasabihin pa kundi Salamat at pinapasok niyo ko sa buhay niyo. Hindi man tayo nagkakilala, hindi man kita nagitian or nagbless man lang ho sainyo. Alam ko sa puso ko at sa pinadama niyo na natanggap niyo ko at nakatulong ito para hindi magbalot ng galit sa puso ko sa mga nangyare  

Till we meet in heaven Sir. Sana pagdating dun kasama ka at ng mga pumanaw kong mahal sa buhay sumundo sakin. I'll hug you by that time tito sabay aayain ko na maginuman tayo.. :)

By: Joanna Marie Manansala Alvarez.

burnin' my time - 2

Bakit ang mais may buhok?

 > baka para pantinga pagkatapos sya kainin?

Bakit siopao, may papel sa ilalim?

 > Para may sapin pagilalapag. 

Bakit ang langgam, hindi hinihika kahit maalikabok sa bahay nila?

 > sanay na? tsaka di naman kasi sila nagyoyosi kaya walang contibuting factor. Tsaka nakapasok knaba sa bahay nila? malupa kaya house ng ants. 

 Bakit ang daga di namamatay sa dumi at sa mabahong paligid?

 > bat naman mamamatay? e madumi din sila and mabaho. kwits lungs! 

Bakit ang siomai, kailangang toothpick ang gamiting pantusok para kainin? Pwede naman fork or bbq stick di ba?

> kasi makakatipid pagtoothpick tsaka para magmukhang malaki tignan. oh ha! :)

Bakit ang tinawag na “Cheezy” ang kapag inihahayag mo ang iyong nararamdaman kapag may nililigawan ka?

> kasi ang cheese e creamy malagkit, malatik parang mga kasweetan diba.. O_O

Saan ba nagmula ang mashed potatoes?

> sa kfc? >,<

Bakit kalimitang triangle ang shape ng tortilla chips? Madami naman ibang hugis, triangle pa ang ginawa sa kanya? Minsan may bilog tulad ng tortillos at taquitos, pero bihira ang square, o hexagon.

> Para pwede ipangtinga diba patusok.. :)

> oh kaya pagtinitipid makakatatlong kagat ka.. hihi *guilty*

Ano ba ang kaibahan ng camote fritters sa camote cue? 

>  sosyal pakinggan yung fritters yung cue pang cheapangga? O_o

Bakit kapag malaki ang itlog na iginulong sa harinang may kulay orange, kwek-kwek ang tawag? Pero pag itlog ng pugo at iginulong sa harinang kulay orange, “tuknene” na ang tawag? Pag iningles mo naman, “Egg waffle” na…soshal!

 > tanong natin kay simsimi? lam ko kasi sya representative ng mga kupunan ng kwek kwek at tukneneg sa mundo. : /

Kelan pa ba nauso ang pagpapakalbo? Meron bang kalbo sa North Pole?

 > siguro meron. minsan dinaman talaga uso sadyang nakakalbo lang sa sa dame ng problema..lol

Bakit pag may sago, hindi nawawala ang gulaman? 

 > para magmukhang marame at mas malaki tubo ng tindero db? :p

Bakit ba tuwing magpa-Pasko lang may puto bumbong? 

 > ayy oo nga, baka kasi nakakaumay pag pate araw ng patay meron din db? >,<

Bakit ang root beer, tinawag na “root beer”? Pareho ba sila ng ingredients ng beer? Di naman sila magkalasa, ang lam ko lang carbonated din yung root beer pero hindi alcoholic.

 > alam ko hindi ah.. basta nung bata ko nainum ko yan sa A&W sa megamall yung si yogi bear pa nga model tapos di naman lasang beer siguro sinadya na lang ganyan pangalan para sa mga batang atat mag beer? *seryosong pagiisip ko yan ah..lol*

Ano ba lasa ang “nganga” at bakit yung matatanda ay kinakain ito? Energizer ba ito?

> dikopa natatry di naman kinakain nginunguya lang.. me nicotine content ata. energizer? bakit battery ba yun? :?

At last but not the least…
  

Bakit ba ang ballpen, pag nagkakayat ng tinta sinasabing “nagtatae”? Pwede naman sabihing nagkakayat o nagkakalat ng tinta di ba? O tumatagas yung tinta, pero kelangan pang ikumpara sa pag-jebs  

> hahaha e panu walang pasintabe bigla na lang nagpopoop ng tinta niya kaya siguro kinompare na lang sa taong may lbm..di mapigilan ilabas yung t*e..lol :}

><> ang mga sagot na ito ay dahil sa tulong ng meyrarco para mafagaan ang buhay ng bawat pilipino..lol :)

Rainy and Cheeessy.. ♥

Just got home from work and here I am.. Blogging after a decade.. Work has been worst as hell.. No off days, pressure upon dealing with that shitty new account, still have my cough and colds.. So basically my daily routine SUCKS! sleep, eat, work, eat, then back to sleep again.. Indeed, I have lose some pounds lately. The only good thing about my life right now is that I'm in Love.. ;))

My days are always complete with just one buzz from her. The corniest song on earth has been appreciated. One time I'm on my way home the bus played " I think I'm in love, I think I'm in love with you..Every single day every single whatever of my life..la la la la  ohhhh".. That song soothes my ear and so I download and played it all day long..Oh myyyy whats wrong with me I could not imagine myself hearing Kuh Ledesma's songs until today...!haha  (thinking of her at this moment and I'm smiling) ;))

Before, Rainy days always make me want to blog out my burdens inside. But when she came (fyi: on a one rainy day) my thought that if its Raining automatic I'm in melancholic mode has been changed. For the first time I embrace the drops and coldness of this weather (kaya siguro sinipon at inubo tuloy ako..haha kiddin aside).

I saw rainbows at the dark starless sky.. Gosssh! I'm sooo baduy.. ;))

Soon I would love to share my umbrella with you or better is that I will be playing under the rain then I'll be hugging you when your already feeling cold.Then when we get old will be sharing our stories under a rainy sky  while holding your hand, were happily having coffee and your seated right next to me . (at nangarap nanaman ako..lol) ;))

I'm off to bed its already 8:24am. Enough with my cheeesyy stuffs.. More of these feel good stories.. ♥^__^♥

><> i  wrote this after the day that I met you. Late post. Sayang naman share kona din. #jre