love.love.love :)

Not feeling well but still I want to push through writing
how much I love you and how important you are to me.. 

To: J

Its been a while since I last wrote a letter for you and I'd like to apologize for that.
I missed you already kin eventhough you're with me a while ago.
Few days from now will be celebrating our six month of loving.. A short span of time but
it feels like we are on our golden anniversary.. haha ;)

I love you being yourself when you're with me..
The way you laugh as if theres no tomorrow..
The way you burp so loud without excusing..
The way you eat as if its gonna be your last meal..
The way you snoar that never puts me to sleep..
haha more to share but this are your usual deeds..

I'm glad that my family loves you. And I'm happier that you love them too..
I love you so much and right now I won't be asking to be your life..
All I want is to be your favorite part.. I will forever be your friend, suitor, partner.

I cannot begin to imagine life without you in it.
I hope somehow this made you feel better. ILYSM.

From: J

>cough and colds, fever: 38.4..a kiss from her will surely makes me feel better.

Day 1 of 365days.

It is not everyday you'll meet someone that will last for a lifetime.
To the girl lying beside me right now. You have a very lovely voice.
I love you so much and it will only be you for all of my life. - 28 :)

1st of January ;)

I'm having a goodvibes upon welcoming you. Based on the Chinese calendar it is the year of the water dragon. I was born 1988.. hmmm.. it is my year! Being a dragon is one of the factors.. ;)

Lovelife: Included in me feeling goody in this year is having a wonderful girlfriend. We are on our fourth month and still counting for more happiness and lovin'. Contented with my forever. ;)

Career: I'm pursuing something that will lead me to practice my profession. I'd like to explore life, be independent. Someone special post this once on facebook. " Subukan mo Mag-isa ng makita mo ang buhay". Lets see! :)

Health: I'm having mild colds right now due to the weather i guess, hopefully I won't be sick the entire year..lol ;)

Wealth: hmmm.. next..haha broke yet happy. ;)

Family: Very happy specially right now my Lola went home from the US..Thank God we are complete. Lots of future plans and I'm praying all things will end up well. ;)

That's for now.. More updates on the upcoming days, weeks or months.. 

WELCOME 2012! *cheers* ;)

kin,,,

Weeeeeew! Finally I have access with my blog! Oooh I miss writing so much.. :)
Lots of thoughts to share but lemme start by saying I'm at my happiest right now.
Thanks be to God for he never lets me down. Christmas is fast approaching and
I'm very excited for the holidays to come cause I'll be spending the days with Jenn.


Two months, 87 days, 2088 hours, 125280 minutes, 7516800 seconds.
The moments we've shared will always be one of the loveliest days of my life.
We traveled through a smooth road well sometimes we can't avoid the humps but still
we surpassed. We are not always together but still Jenn never fails to make me feel so love.


to be continued.. :)

Taken, Happy, Finally. ;)

This is one of the most special entry I'll ever post in my entire period of blogging.

Reviewing my old posts somehow makes me sad. Indeed, I've been through a lot. Nine months of facing darkness has been worst as hell. Luckily, I survived and the lessons I've gained will be forever treasured in my life.Somehow, I thanked the people who broke my heart cause by now I can say that I'm a BETTER man. 

I have been through so many trial and errors.That I came to a point where I fear love. But I guess destiny has been playful and it did turned my heart back on track. Suddenly, a very special girl popped into my pond.
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First entry of me having a girlfriend. ^__^

I never imagined she'll be mine but i'll admit she caught my attention because of her chinky eyes..

We exchanged digits and had convos unto the sun goes down. She speaks ohh so fine that every word makes me smile. I saw her and the world melts down and yes butterflies has been growling inside. 

At first all I want is to meet someone new and make friends. I never expected feelings would grow fonder.

The feeling of procrastinating and being in Hiatus was felt by my system. I woke up not thinking of work, reports nor stress all I'm wanting is her attention and that's it. She's driving me crazy and I'm enjoying every second of it.

Now that I already have her I swear to keep her forever. Whatever whirlwinds or storms that will surpass upon us I'll make sure i'll be by her side hugging her and making her feel everything would be perfectly fine. 

Aside from love I'll build more and take care of her TRUST. Infidelity won't be an issue for my heart and eyes only see is her alone.

I'll never get tired courting you not only when your mad but also everyday of our lives. I'll make sure the arguments we will have will still be ending up into saying how I love you so much. The huffs and jealousy will be washed out by a tight hug. I'll be you crutches, walker and cane. 

I want you for always-- days, years, eternities. I love you so Ms. Pasay. ♥

ways on how to forget ex- barbie / goofy

CRY-- don't be shy burst whatever tears you have in your eyes.. If its possible you can also pull out your eyeballs to have the drops flow like a river.. Cry until you got dehydrated. Upon waking up thinking that she/he is no longer yours just cry.. Then at the end of the day when you look at the mirror you'll be seeing a puffy fishy eyes stuck in your face..!*_* lmao =))

after crying so bad, you can't show your face to your Parents and the rest of the gang at home cause their gonna tease you or they will endlessly ask you what's wrong.. am i ryt?

Crying is good but  of course you should know when to stop and eventually for sure you'll be tired until there's no more tears coming out. Scientifically, they say after 12minutes if your still shedding tears its not true anymore your already welcome to audition as an Actor and be nominated at Oscar's... lols =)) 

DRINK-- waste your money buying liquors.. Be with the bartender! Order all the effing cocktail until you drop.. Be best buds with the beer.. Fill your system with  alcohol dear.. Trust me it will help you so much.. =))

I'm sure you can't sleep at night cause your used to hugging her/him even if she/he smells like a horse.. It is only the alcoholic beverage who can help you with this problem..Drinking would prolly put you asleep. It can also give you the best roller coaster hangover..after drinking you won't be thinking of him/her you would be self-centered I swear.. And the best part drinking will help you speak up all your damn displeasure in life and for sure no one is listening coz' their also drunk .. ^__^

The reward of doing such acts is that one day you'll wake up saying WHAT THE FUCK I WASTED SO MUCH BUCKS and all I got is a throbbing headache..!!! You'll realized, I'm wasting time and grilling my liver for a person who doesn't know my worth..? He/She prolly is doing well with her/his life and WHAT? Look at yourself and you'll see a wasted being who almost french kiss the toilet bowl after vomiting.. am I making sense? I know my dear reader Drinking is a part of the process but of course you should not rely on it for washing the pain.. =))

COMMUNICATE-- often superheroes depends on their sidekicks for a mission to be complete. Share your burdens. Dear your are not the only person in the world. TALK...! Spill it out.. tell the story to everyone if your close to your Mom, Pop or Siblings that would be the best peeps you can lean on. Second option would be your best pals.. =)) Then sure thing they'll tell you I TOLD YOU SHE/He's an ASSHOLE.  Share the lame story to them SPEAK out everything. Friends would react in different ways.. Some would influence you to hate him/her which is the most common for you not to comeback when the bully shows Buddy Love's Move.. Some would say forgive and forget.. Some would just be speechless but will offer a tight hug. *sigh*

The good thing with Communicating is that you'll prolly tell the story more than a hundred times with each peeps you'll be crashing on. Until, one day you just want to record the story on tape then play it if someone ask what happened..Then, eventually if someone asked for it again you'll just answer its a long story might as well forget it.. AGREE? =))

woooot..! Asar!

I'll miss your smile that sparks cause of your bakal.

I'll miss your chinky eyes that closes every time you laugh.

I'll miss you calling me bata.

I'll miss making kurot at you and your sweet batok.

I'll miss you pulling me if I'm gonna do something goofy.

I'll miss your hampas and accidental sampal.

I'll miss your super daming kilig.

I'll miss your sweet messages and expressions.

I'll miss you saying ang cute mo.

I'll miss your charming voice.

I'll miss the way you drive and how you kill zombies.

I'll miss chatting with you.

I'll miss your HMP and HMMM...

I'll miss holding your hand.

I'll miss eating nakaktinga foods with you.

I'll miss walking under d rain with you.

I'll miss sharing my jacket with you.

I'll miss your sweetness.

I'll miss your many ways of saying you miss me.

I'll be missing so much of YOU. Asar! ♥

13th day and done.

I said goodbye to someone that has been very special to me lately.

There's no reason I just felt the cowardliness of loving her so. 

No issues or any to blame except for me, myself and I. 

Indeed, I'm running away from love. It hurts to see that I'll be hurting her in the future. 

That I'll be making her cry for sadness. That there would be a time that she needs me and I'm not there.

I can't tolerate what I have for her right now. But I swear I'm so much in pain and even jerking my tears out will not make me feel better. 

I know its gonna be a big regret. She could have been the ONE but i'll just let her pass. 

Its not the issue of me being not ready. Its just that I'm scared to hold her heart. Baka diko mapanindigan.

It's so hard to lose the one you love and to finally say Goodbye. Hope she'll find someone who really deserves everything in her. 

I'm really sorry. I love you. bye.

Can I court you..?

Hope your answer would be as lovely as your smile.

Ohhhh yeah! >:)

And all I see is you.. ;)

And so I spent almost half of my day with her..I don't know what's with her that makes me feel sooooo comfortable.. Ohh and for the first time I didn't let a girl wait for me instead I waited for her..Gooossshh!
Her smile melts me down. Loads of chickas has been around but only my eyes wants to see is her.. ;)


The excitement of playing at Timezone has been back. She sucks in shooting and worst in driving but that's fine her cuteness makes me just laugh on those stuffs..haha ;)
Never felt tired roaming around the mall with her.. We had coffee (thank you for the venti..! ^_^) the convo we had were full of laughter and whatever. She makes me laugh that easy! Then we ate I ordered Roasted Nakakatinga Beef and she choose the Chicken Cordon bleu with Kagulat sauce..haha ^__~


Wait I suddenly felt the urge to write a letter for her.. here yah go..


For you J:


You're not feeling well but you still choose to be with me than having rest.
I sincerely appreciate your effort and I'm very pleased by the time you allotted.
I'm at my happiest right now J. I hope you also do feel the same.


I want more time with you. Today is only the beginning of my hopes for forever.
The moment I saw you things has became blurry and all I see was you and your cute smile.
Whatever sign it may be I swear I felt butterflies in my stomach.. lol ;)


I'd like to take care of you not only when your not well but also during the ordinary days of your life.
My system wants to hug you but of course I know my limits and I hope somehow I'd show you my respect.
I really do had a great time! Thank you so much. 


From: J


>>>*batok na sweet* ♥<<<