hi big guy! :)
I never had the chance to personally meet you,
I never had the chance to see your smiles or say hi po tito.
I never had the chance to even hear your voice.
All I can remember is a man lying inside a casket wearing a white barong.
A Man that has been a very good father to his children.
A Man who is love by so many. A good friend.
A faithful husband and a deary son to his Parents.
Wonderin' how can I say this words when I haven't got the chance to know you.
Sir, I thanked God everyday that I have met your daughter.
I thanked him for the chance to know your stories.
And I know you know how much I thanked you for bringing her into this earth.
I know you have heard my prayers. And I'm thankful that you respond onit.
Mr. Estipona thank you for that wonderful event that has happened yesterday and today.
You made me believe that death doesn't separate us from the people we love.
You somehow scared me though. Thank you for the appreciation.
I know its you who stayed and watched over me last night..
Is it a return of the promise that I have said during your last days on earth?
I'd love to share the wonderful story with the people who'll take time to read this post. This might help them to also believe that their lost loved ones never did left them.
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September of 2011
You were rushed into the hospital. I was shocked and I worried so much.
When the diagnosis came out I already knew the last stage which is death.
I was at Glorietta with my friends I couldn't stop thinking on your daughter.
And so I went to the hospital to give her support.
I was walking through the hallway and I stared at the window. I saw your daughter crying so bad.
I heard the machines as if its counting your minutes, hours or days. I felt so bad cause things happened with just one glimpse of an eye.
I prayed to God and talked to you Sir. This are the exact words.
'' Mr. Estipona, Tito, Sir... I know your in pain, I know you want to wake up and say your last words to your family. Sir, I promise to take care of your daughter and I promise to always be there for her. I hope you'll give your blessing and trust..''
Septembe 26 you passed away. On your last day before I go home I talked to you and say the same words.
I touched your casket, If I can only touch your hands i'll prolly do that. May you rest in peace Mr. Estipona. This are My last words.
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May-June 2012
J and I has been down to the end of the road. This days was so harsh for me.
Until the day that it is confirmed. There's someone else that's making her happy.
I cried so bad that I can no longer breathe. I was drenched with tears.
And so I prayed. And the MAGICAL moment happened. ^___^
Nanghingi ako ng strength. Lord God I need it badly.
paulit- ulit lang yan sinasabe ko. Hanggang bigla ko naisip na kausapin
ka Tito Ben.
Lord God can I speak to him and then I gave a moment of silence. then I continued praying and talking.
Tito, Sorry sa nangyare, sorry if I cause to much pain on her.
Yung promise ko po hindi ko padin bibitawan.
Pero sana maintindihan niyo na hindi nako laging nasa tabe niya.
Patawad kung masama loob ko saknya...............
(mahaba ang mga nasabe ko, pero yan ang pinaka thought at tanging maisheshare ko. )
Sa pagdarasal ko lage ko naglalaan ng katahimikan at nagaantay ng sagot kahit alam ko na wala naman magrereply. Naalala ko yung tinext ko kay J..
'' Feel his presence through the wind that can be his hugs or through the sound of the shaking trees and humming birds for it can be his voice.''
Nasabe ko sa prayer ko ''TITO, KUNG NARINIG MO DASAL KO PWEDE BAKO MAKARINIG NG HUMMING OF A BIRDS.''
Nakataklob ako umiiyak biglang nakarinig ako ng mahinang ''twit' diko pinansin baka guniguni ko lang.
Dasal pako ulit kung huni ba ng ibon yun? Biglang may nag ''Twit'' ulit medyo malakas na. Natakot nako ng konte tumabe ko sa kapatid ko. Tapos pagsilip ko sa labas ng Kumot may super lakas na 'TWIT'.
Subrang fear ko ghost, subrang duwag ako sa ganyang aspeto pero nung nangyare yun natulala ko na napasmile. Tama bako? sinagot mo yung hiningi konga sign? narinig mo dasal ko tito? Ayoko mag-assume. Pero kinikilabutan ako pagnaiisip ko at kinilabutan din friends ko nung shinare ko nangyare.
2am hanggang umaga diako nakatulog.. hindi rin ako tumigil ng pagiyak.. Hanggang sa magliwanag na at nagdasal ako ulit. The entire morning nakarinig nako ng humming ng birds. Tagal kong dinaka rinig nun at to think it was raining so bad at may mga ibon na kumakanta habang umiiyak ako.
Binantayan mobako? Kung oo tito maraming salamat po. Maraming salamat na nakita niyo sa langit ganu ko kamahal at inalagaan anak niyo. Maraming salamat at dinamayan moko. Ramdam ko nafeel niyo burden ko.
Salamat Mr. Estipona, Sir, Tito Ben. ^___^
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I know soon or by this time may ipapakilala na syang bagong tao sa buhay niya.
I know you'll also give your blessings. I know by writing this entry some people will view it in a negative way.
Alam ko iisipin ginagamit kita to win her back. Sana maniwala sila na labas na naging relationship namin ni J sa kwentong to at sa nangyare.
Sir, you've been one of the reasons why naging strong kami nun. Wala nako ibang sasabihin pa kundi Salamat at pinapasok niyo ko sa buhay niyo. Hindi man tayo nagkakilala, hindi man kita nagitian or nagbless man lang ho sainyo. Alam ko sa puso ko at sa pinadama niyo na natanggap niyo ko at nakatulong ito para hindi magbalot ng galit sa puso ko sa mga nangyare
Till we meet in heaven Sir. Sana pagdating dun kasama ka at ng mga pumanaw kong mahal sa buhay sumundo sakin. I'll hug you by that time tito sabay aayain ko na maginuman tayo.. :)
By: Joanna Marie Manansala Alvarez.