woooot..! Asar!

I'll miss your smile that sparks cause of your bakal.

I'll miss your chinky eyes that closes every time you laugh.

I'll miss you calling me bata.

I'll miss making kurot at you and your sweet batok.

I'll miss you pulling me if I'm gonna do something goofy.

I'll miss your hampas and accidental sampal.

I'll miss your super daming kilig.

I'll miss your sweet messages and expressions.

I'll miss you saying ang cute mo.

I'll miss your charming voice.

I'll miss the way you drive and how you kill zombies.

I'll miss chatting with you.

I'll miss your HMP and HMMM...

I'll miss holding your hand.

I'll miss eating nakaktinga foods with you.

I'll miss walking under d rain with you.

I'll miss sharing my jacket with you.

I'll miss your sweetness.

I'll miss your many ways of saying you miss me.

I'll be missing so much of YOU. Asar! ♥

13th day and done.

I said goodbye to someone that has been very special to me lately.

There's no reason I just felt the cowardliness of loving her so. 

No issues or any to blame except for me, myself and I. 

Indeed, I'm running away from love. It hurts to see that I'll be hurting her in the future. 

That I'll be making her cry for sadness. That there would be a time that she needs me and I'm not there.

I can't tolerate what I have for her right now. But I swear I'm so much in pain and even jerking my tears out will not make me feel better. 

I know its gonna be a big regret. She could have been the ONE but i'll just let her pass. 

Its not the issue of me being not ready. Its just that I'm scared to hold her heart. Baka diko mapanindigan.

It's so hard to lose the one you love and to finally say Goodbye. Hope she'll find someone who really deserves everything in her. 

I'm really sorry. I love you. bye.

Can I court you..?

Hope your answer would be as lovely as your smile.

Ohhhh yeah! >:)

And all I see is you.. ;)

And so I spent almost half of my day with her..I don't know what's with her that makes me feel sooooo comfortable.. Ohh and for the first time I didn't let a girl wait for me instead I waited for her..Gooossshh!
Her smile melts me down. Loads of chickas has been around but only my eyes wants to see is her.. ;)


The excitement of playing at Timezone has been back. She sucks in shooting and worst in driving but that's fine her cuteness makes me just laugh on those stuffs..haha ;)
Never felt tired roaming around the mall with her.. We had coffee (thank you for the venti..! ^_^) the convo we had were full of laughter and whatever. She makes me laugh that easy! Then we ate I ordered Roasted Nakakatinga Beef and she choose the Chicken Cordon bleu with Kagulat sauce..haha ^__~


Wait I suddenly felt the urge to write a letter for her.. here yah go..


For you J:


You're not feeling well but you still choose to be with me than having rest.
I sincerely appreciate your effort and I'm very pleased by the time you allotted.
I'm at my happiest right now J. I hope you also do feel the same.


I want more time with you. Today is only the beginning of my hopes for forever.
The moment I saw you things has became blurry and all I see was you and your cute smile.
Whatever sign it may be I swear I felt butterflies in my stomach.. lol ;)


I'd like to take care of you not only when your not well but also during the ordinary days of your life.
My system wants to hug you but of course I know my limits and I hope somehow I'd show you my respect.
I really do had a great time! Thank you so much. 


From: J


>>>*batok na sweet* ♥<<<

I'm your Frissoner.. ♥

FRISSON --It's when you get all fuzzy & giddy, butterflies in the stomach, heart skipping beats, etc. when someone you really like passes by you/is with you/enters your thoughts depends on the level of frisson. At times, you tend to act really weird. Giddy fuzzy love blush -- in tagalog KILIG. When was the last time I felt that electrifying spark of Frisson? uhmm..  oh! few minute ago after receiving a message from J..hmmm, Simple things but makes a big impact to my system.. I'll admit me fishy is a big fan of Romance. I still memorized the ever popular tagline of Ms. Nothing hill " I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her". And who could not forget the movie who touches all the hopefuls heart. Me favorite: "Siguro kaya tayo iniiwanan ng mga mahal natin dahil may darating pang ibang mas magmamahal sa’tin- yung hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin..’yung magtatama ng lahat ng mali sa buhay natin.”—Popoy, One More Chance.  I'll share some of the Frisson breaks I've done. Me fishy have few body love moves talent.  Lets start with the basics to the Intensive phase..lols ^_^ I usually give a bouquet of pink roses for my date this means Me fishy is thankful of her time and hoping that she'll believe me in the things I'll be telling her during our conversations.I don't give red roses for it is already common amongst the presence of love. Instead I offer RED TULIPS to express my declaration of truest love. Eventually if things flow well I'll be sending her CREAM TULIPS every special days of us this tells a promise that I will always do feel the same way for her or even more forever and ever.. =))  When it comes to restaurants me fishy don't go for the classy fine dining those are only for husband and wives. I go for the restaurants who have different gimmicks to make it memorable for her. Like eating at DAMPA simply buy peeling the shell of the shrimp for her would be a plus point move right? or dining at Burgoo where we can write at the table like putting her first name into my last..=)) or by simply going to Banchetto and eat isaw on the streets. Through dining out me fishy observes me dates attitude. On how cowboy she is or how cool she deal with the people serving us. BTW, its a plus point for me if the girl decides on where we will pig out. =)) Surprises I love..! ^__^ As much as possible I don't give gifts that can be bought to the stores. Perhaps, I come up something through my efforts.  I wanted it in a unique way. Let me sight some examples:1.) I made a scrapbook I draw all our pictures together beside it is the original photo 2x2 size of course I would love to emphasized my painting..lol =)) In the book I put some things I get from the places we went through like sand at subic, receipt of Buddy's at Quezon, toothpick at 50's dinner Baguio. Included in that are letters and poem I made esp for her.2.) I bought a cake and few pieces of ferrero roche. Me put the ferrero's on the top of the cake in a heart shape then Me put Samba's<a cheap chocolate> around to fill the spaces.. then fishy billy wrote in the card "In A world full of Samba I finally found MY ferrero". =) 3.) I surprised someone with a puppy Me fishy has the biggest fear for dogs but Me faced it for the sake of making her happy. I hide inside the box together with the puppy in a balikbayan box then Me asked someone to deliver us to their doorstep. Then when she open the box she was surprised seeing me paled face holding a doggy..=))                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Sometimes surprise her by giving extra effort on dressing up chickas should always have crush on you. I have done this so many times. Example: on our typical mall day I groomed well she was surprised she command me to hold her hands, embrace her be sweet. She was terrified cause some chickas turn their heads upon me..lol =)) -- I always wear casual shorts and shirts during mall days. My Frisson way of arresting her heart when Me asking for an apology. Gifts and Flowers are my last resort when it comes to this stage. I always do strange attention seeking way for her to forgive me. One great example is when I borrowed the Microphone at Brothers Burger the one they are using to send their order then I sang " Hey babe ako ay tlgang patay sayo! Sa true love mo ako'y natutunaw..Babe ano ba nga tunay na sikreto mo at ako ay nainlove ng husto oh oh oh.. #she approaches me to make me stop then I told her "I'm sorry".. It was a success apology accepted she's so embarrassed her face blushed so bad and looses her appetite. She wasn't able to finished her burger =)).. If its just a minor offense Ive done I seldom ask someone a stranger mostly the security gurads to say sorry in behalf of me..lol =)) Lastly, the Frisson way for her to say "YES I DO"... I have nothing good to share bout this. Not that I'm bragging but I haven't experience proposing. I don't have the guts to say what I feel.. Commonly they would ask for them and me to be lovers.. Oh well, try to watch ideas at Youtube or movies such as Ten things I hate about you, Wedding Singer, Letters to Juliet, A walk to remember or The proposal..Nice set of movies with unique way of asking for YES I do.. ^__^ Frisson. Its one great sense of Love. Ohh.. even Mr. Webster could never define where this strange feeling came from. I bet even Mrs. Google Map can't trace the origin of Frisson in our land. Neither our Dear Weatherman can't forecast when will this attack. All I know is that even Cardiologist can't explain tachycardia when frisson passes on their hearts.. ^__^ --  just a trivia: I'm on my 1st grade when I experienced Kilig.. Am I a late bloomer? some says they had their during Nursery! deym! ><>  --repost from old blog. :))

We can't tolerate further feelings.I guess.

Why am feeling this way. I was talking to a very close friend doing some updates cause lately both of us were so busy. And so I tell her that I'm liking someone. She asked me what's the status I answered I'm happy and I'm getting there. She asked me for how long have you been communicating I replied 7 days.
Seven days and you're already getting there? You ready for a serious relationship? she answered.

Why am I having this weird stomach aches! please don't tell me I'm.. damn!

Love, Tears, Past.

Just got home from Kuya's wedding. Quite disappointed cause I wasn't able to attend the ceremony. I missed out the vows and the judge sermon. I could have grab some new ideas about relationships. I asked Mom few lines from Kuya's vow.

     Convo Me and Mom eating marshmallows. 

     

        Me: Ma, share ka nga few lines from Kuya's vow.. ^_____^ 

        Mom: Anak nakakaiyak. palakpakan nga kami e. #smile din si mama ;)

        Me: Oo nga Ma nakakaiyak panu nakakaiyak? kwento mo. O_O

        Mom: Ayun nga nakakaiyak kasi ang gulo ng mga bata diko masyado naintindihan.

        Me: Panu ka naiyak dimo naman pala nagets?! O_o

     Pansin mo? our convo sucks! haha kulit tlga kausap..tsk 

Going back I won't be in details for some peeps privacy. I posted on fb "He made me cry". That would be one of the loveliest man in my life. He saw his ex-wife at the wedding. His about to go home. He says goodbye to the ex he approached her then kiss her goodbye then he cried upon turning back. I felt his sadness and so tears suddenly drop out from me eyes. Then something loomed from me mind.

No matter how long you and the person you love have not seen each other. Though you already found someone new in your life and failed love has been accepted. Tsk, Mahirap padin mag panggap. I know that man loves his ex-wife so much. As what Mom told us that's his One great love. hai nakakaiyak nakita kopa kasi..tsk! So much questions I have in mind right now. ;'(

Indeed, Love can never be forgotten by time especially if you know that she/he is the ONE.

--off to greenhills. bye.

And she makes my day.. ^__~

Infront of the computer, lights off, have a bottle of miglyt on my side.. Suddenly I felt sad. Someone asked me if how long am I being single . Then I count the months starting from the day my last girlfriend and I broke up. I was surprised with what I have come up with. Nine months. Indeed I stayed single for so long right?


I'm not in a hurry I swear. Time and Emotion are so special to just waste on someone your not sure if its really love. Its just the curiosity that strikes me out.. I can't help myself asking these questions. Is there something wrong with me? Am I salbahe? Am I panget? Is it the vibes of me being a womanizer? WHAT?!!!
I envy those who are happy with their partners. Quite mean pero minsan makakasalubong ako sa mall tapos naiisip ko.. Woooot! hang swerte ni ate ang ganda ng girlfriend.. O_O


Moving on.. I'm about to transform my mood into having Sumpong times a hundred but suddenly someone effortlessly  changes my mood.. She makes me smile that quick.. So just disregard my emo thoughts above. I'm already feeling better and its because of her. Thank you so much. Me gusta que mantener usted para siempre Ate.. ^__^

Blog Under Construction..

I'm fixing some entries and stuffs.. Its obvious with d' title so no need to explain ho..lol ;)

Letter for whoever... ♥

Good morning..! I'm having my hot chocolate while thinking of you.. On my first blog, I was waiting for you to arrived at my office before the Valentine's day last year.. But you never did.. Don't worry I'm not mad I can understand maybe your busy or its just not the right timing for us. I may not have you officially but I can sense we are very near from being there. Things are happening slow I may not be having the chance to touch, kiss nor hug you. Indeed, its fine I'm enjoying every single day patiently waiting for you.

I watched "No String Attached" last night and so you suddenly popped into my thoughts. If its the Label that's making you hesitant to be with me don't worry I won't be asking for any. Your presence is more than enough to complete my existence. I'm not hoping for a perfect relationship. I'll accept all your flaws and I hope you'll also embrace mine. I'll admit I've been an asshole with my past relationships but of course I've learned and promise not to do the same shits on you. I'll work on us having a strong foundation for trust. For I believe Love and Trust best collide cut one of them will make the relationship crash out right?hmmm..

Prolly, by now your sleeping or having breakfast, better yet your preparing for work or school. Wherever you are I hope your fine. My prayers are with you. I miss and love you so.. (Hope in the future I'll be able to read my letters at your side.) ♥